how pauline got her own life

TJ!!!

2010-02-12T17:36:00.002+08:00

so far, surviving JC and loving it!

hadn't got time to update since i had been very busy the past few weeks. how jolin is able to tackle her studies AND blog is beyond me...

anyway, some of the TJ activities include:

-orientation- XEYLA, 11!!
-mass dance
-O-nite!
-bedok green clean up
-CG (civil group) bonding
-PDP auditions and tryouts
-tapestry sewing
-weaving friendship bands

leading up till today,
-road run
-CNY carnival

a mouthful eh? :) as much as i'd like to recount EVERY SINGLE EXCITING AND SUCKY DETAIL and MOMENT spent in school, i possibly can't. too much.

so yeah. if you wanna hear stories, ring me up :D

yes, girls, there are plenty of good looking guys in TJ. mostly contributed by the senoirs, JC2. for JC 1 batch...er, not so, haha!

art studio and thearetics

2010-01-30T21:16:00.003+08:00

1st day at school, TJC:

i studied the travel route carefully and came up with 5 to 6 different ways to get to TJ. i picked #3, which was probably the fastest- taking the train to Bedok station and boarding bus 38 from the interchange.

i was, surprisingly, on time. (heck, i'm always late. "Never early" should be my middle name.) anyway, i met up with waileng before we entered the auditorium and the whole JC1 batch was divided into 4 groups, Xaedon, Xeia, Xeyla and X.don: ORIENTATION X.

i'm in Xeyla! by some mere coincidence, bing lun is in the same orientation group (OG11) as me.

the OGLs are mad. really :) they cheered through the entire first half of the morning and me, and the girl beside me, Amarylline, got sort of exasperated. they did it continuously- even the emcees looked frazzled.

we had ice breakers (consisting of sitting around a circle and doing introductions). we also played "blow wind blow" and whacko. and lengthy talks and subject briefings. gary told me to expect that, still i got restless.

break: i tried the canteen food. it's not bad :D jap pork and egg bowl with honeydew-apple fresh fruit juice.

zhanhao brought us out of school premises and i realised there were 5 convenient coffee shops directly opposite the school. minimarts, bubble tea shops too. cool eh? a whole variety to feast on!

attended chemistry and biology lectures. H2 biology= molecular. genetics. DNA. no more human internal systems. and all the complicated terms came out; words i can't even bring myself to pronounce and spell correctly. the verdict? maybe it won't be wise to take A level bio after all.

went for an art gallery tour too.

2nd day of school, TJ:

sat through PDP video presentation. i'm not sure which group i'd like to join. performing arts or sports?

should i take taekwondo?
floorball?
drama?
dance?
choir?

argghhh. spoilt for choice.

anyway, i missed mass dance practice and took the art aptitude test instead.

section 1: draw your hand or the paper crane in front of you.

it's not as easy as it looks. an artist has to take into consideration the angle, perception, colour and value. 1 hour.

break.

section 2: pick one artwork among the two mentioned and comment on the use of materials and what the artist is trying to convey.

i selected this giant black hinged frame decorated with rubik's cube, stuff toys and soft play mat. and started crapping away paragraphs. i think i kept repeating myself, just that i wrote the sentences in different expressions! LOL.

section 3: use one piece of paper or a bunch of straws and create your own craft. scissors only provided. nothing else.

i freaked for the first 10 minutes. i fiddled with the paper while the rest of the art geniuses were snipping away.

by the half hour, my lap was full of paper cutouts.

see, when one does art, one is fully immersed with it, so much so, time flies. i looked up and spied the other's work. wendy did a pop up house setting. complete with fence and bushes. mary ann was twirling strips of paper roses. a china girl was weaving strips.

me? adjusting my masquerade mask, haha! it's tough because everyone else is experienced, more creative and competitive than me

it felt like a scene on Project runway! (i love that show by the way.)

we also had to discuss about our artwork. i rambled on about italian carnevales and the teacher looked impressed.

the teacher requested me and amaryllis to redraw the first section. my tone range was too limited with more shades of similar grey. so i drew the paper crane under a lamp and added the shadow.

somehow, we got stuck in the art studio with jiaying and david.

ok, get this, david's like the exact twin of joseph. he absolutely digs video game music. final fantasy. musicales. he can slur out some german or french garbage. haha. he's so dramatic, far worse than me, and i was laughing so hard, i couldn't draw properly!!! :D

in the end, i GOT IN!!! finally fulfilled my dream of working in an art studio instead of my usual science labs :)

your own future.

2010-01-26T12:56:00.003+08:00

MONDAY:

had lunch with my mom at Jack's place (they have an awesome student's meal by the way!).

i realise my mom and i are more bonded because i spend more time with her during the holidays. this is because while my siblings are schooling and my dad's at work, we watch movies together, window shop, and work out in the gym.

sometimes we talk about the future or other things- canada, JC, boys, hairstyles, cars, boys, money, savings, clothes, boys, university, church, classmates, boys, losing weight, dieting, exercising, boys. yeah. woman-girl stuff.

i also dropped by Melville park condo (xinyun stays there) to check the place out for this wednesday's BBQ class gathering. i'm keeping my fingers crossed for the event to run smoothly and successfully.

me and xy chatted about the games we made, the booking of pits, swimming, sports facilities. she also mentioned that her first choice of school is nanyang JC. mine's TJ. apparently, her dad "forced" her to go to the school. he even hand-picked her subjects and CCA!

i think parents should let their child, when they are old enough, to make their own decisions to pave their own way for their future. parents should advice and caution, not impose! :/

for instance, while my parents pointed out for me to pursue something sciency and mathematical- engineering or medical, i'd like to be able to express my creativity, be it ideas, words, images, sound. i am strong in being analytical, but what makes me tick is really space for my own creation. because i'm not hard bent on fact and figures.

till then, i'll see where the wind takes me. (man, it's hard for me, an idealist, to be practical!)

psst, watched korean drama for 3 hours straight. i was struggling to keep my eyes open past midnight! :D

TUESDAY:

nothing much. just strumming my guitar, checking my emails, facebooking...awaiting my posting results. tomorrow. at 8 am.

i hope i go to a JC where most of my friends are going too...

i'm gonna make my next four months of JC totally outrageous, crazy and fun. just you watch. won't be hard anyway, since i have a knack for attracting trouble :)

heartbreaks heartaches of memories.

2010-01-24T17:08:00.005+08:00

as camille would have put it, rather nicely, i might add "[i] am tired of blogging."

yeah. me too. nothing exciting happens in my life anyway. if i were to recount everything, my readers won't be readers anymore but sleepers. or skippers. moving on to next blog!

but for some reason, i am gifted with words ~~and looks~~ and i adore writing. so let me tweak my daily activities, to a hilarious story, shall we? :)

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FRIDAY:

at night, i decided to try out the New Orleans food recipe, Fish Creole (i am not sure how it is spelt)

seabass chunks with tomato sauce, celery, and green pepper. my dad taught me to scale a fish. so i was gripping this huge slimey grey reeking body, sightless fish eyes staring into mine.

ew. and to think my mom loves to bite the fish's eye off when its fried. no kidding.

anyway, i'm not a squeamish girl (except to cockroaches. i scream and can make your eardrums pop) so i did the dirty fish business and cooked the vegetables in a wok.

the result? i think it tasted fab. *bows down to imaginary standing ovation*

SATURDAY:

after guitar class, i desperately needed to get my hands on some killer-acne products.

I HAVE A CLASS GATHERING ON WEDNESDAY AND I HAVE 4 BLOODY BIG PIMPLES TO GET RID OFF!!

a mammoth task. it calls for something big.

like magic.

but it doesn't exist. so the next best thing would be nexcare acne clear stickers and OXY cream.

i was walking right towards the escalator going down when i bumped onto...him.

no, not the tall dark and handsome guy in the bus. another one of my ex-crushes. he'a fair and robust. and god, did he work out??!!

he had his phone glued to his ear, chatting animatedly, and faltered when i nearly crashed onto him. we stood there, looking at each other. i had a cool greeting ready, at the tip of my tongue, but the words just died there and then.

many people claim that, before one dies, they see their life flash right before your eyes. well, you don't actually have to be dying to see the past whizz in front of you. i was staring into his eyes, and all the painful memories conjured up. and all i thought was "i'm sorry. i'm so sorry."

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he took my hand. "pauline, i really really like you." his stroked the sensitive flesh between my fingers. "you make me feel great; i'm so happy- no girl has ever done that." he continued to stare ahead, pouring out his soul. his honesty stung.

shit. what have i done? i didn't do anything. or maybe i did. that's why. i was so very good at this game right?

i squirmed. "maybe you're not thinking...you know, i-"

he looked at me curiously. "sorry, this would hurt," i thought.

"we can't be together because i'm not good for you."

he frowned. "maybe you're the best for me."

hell, not working!! i tried another excuse.

"no, i feel we don't suit. we don't share the same interests and-"

"must two people be truly the same to be together?" he shot back.

of course not. but i don't want to be with you. not anymore. together? what was that supposed to mean? to be bonded to you? that will kill my spirit. no, i can't lay all my happiness solely in a boy. where does that road lead? anguish. pain. heartbreaks. disappointment.

"we're not compatible. and do you know? i break hearts. all the time," i gave a bitter laugh. because it was true. all true. but the real reason behind it- i didn't say.

"i will break you, hurt you, and bring you pain. you should stay away from me," i resisted to add, "stubborn ass"- an endearment of some sorts.

then reality spun back in place.

i could see the hurt in his eyes. the anguish. he was guarded. wary. he opened his mouth to say something but i didn't permit him to. i fled down the escalator and wound around the levels, trying to ditch him. coward. my sister struggled to keep up with me.

"i saw-"

"yes, it's him," i replied grimly. dang, of all times...

SUNDAY:

i went for my guitar class. not again, but it was accoustic this time. (saturday was classical). we learnt to play "Love will keep us alive" by Eagles. my dad's a fan, by the way.

since we would be migating, my mother took it upon herself to clear all the old books and photo albums in the dining cabinets. i threw away old magazines and chinese guidebooks (gleefully). my mother and i flipped through pictures, mostly yellow with age and let ourselves be transported back in time.

there was me in jeans, cuddling my 3 year old brother. my sister in her purple ballerina tutu. my dad and mom, newly weds, sprawled on the forest floor. it was autumn in America, and the leaves were a lovely shade of golden and orange.

my cousin with his big belly, too-tight bermudas and goggles. we went swimming at a resort in Cebu.

me wearing an adorable denim jumper, prancing with my kindergarten teacher.

my dad, youthful, with his guitar.

my mom, in her teens, clutching her pet dog.

my sister's 11th birthday.

time does fly. i'm nearly an adult now (ok, not yet) and soon enough i'll follow in my parents footsteps (no, i don't wish to be an engineer actually)

would i also be flipping photographs with my future son or daughter, reminiscing? maybe i'll tell stories. "i had a crush on that boy." or, "see look, Auntie Camille and her frizzy mane." haha!

magic and mayhem

2010-01-21T21:29:00.004+08:00

boring week.

but today, grace invited me over to her house for lunch. we also watched the korean movie, 2oo pounds beauty.

it taught me that everyone desires something, and beauty is one of those "somethings". cliche as it sounds, who you are, what your inner being is, is far more important than the outer being. like superficial VS. the literal.

and it sort of um, egged me to eat more healthily. i mean, indulge on goodies and become huge? never! i would not forgive myself. and exercise regularly too. to keep in shape.

we played the board game "are you smarter than a fifth grader?". apparently, they both of us aren't. i gave an incorrect answer for the 1 million question!! bye bye million :(

the questionaires aren't easy, i tell you. it's hard! some of it is beyond our context. like American Social Studies, History and Poetry.

she taught me to play a piano piece and did a magic trick!! she tore a piece of paper into shreds, handed me one strip, place the other strips into a black box, whirled and twisted it around, and when she opened, the shreds of paper "rejoined" to form back one whole piece of paper, excluding the very piece i'm holding!

i pieced my shred to the paper and it fit! i was exclaiming how she did it! :D she showed me the illusion in the end, haha.

we also played with barbie and ken dolls.

what? i still like barbie :)

past in the bus

2010-01-16T19:57:00.001+08:00

there goes any normal day for me. a normal saturday.

usually, in the morning, my sis and i would go to guitar class.
and then to tampines regional library to return our books.

the predictable, uneventful weekday.

the routine broke today, however, because it seems fate has some twisted sense of humor.

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i wasn't feeling very good- emotionally drained, so i sat by myself instead of the usual bus seat beside my sister.

then he came in. he boarded the bus.

after 5 years, of appearing and then disappearing from my life, he still managed to create a damned big impact on me.

tall, dark (ok, tanned. somewhat) and handsome (literally!) like the past, only he looks better now, in the present. he wasn't buff, but the lanky-sexy sort of way. he wore casual- bermudas and a tee. but what caught my eye was his tousled black locks hidden in his cap; some of it escaped and dipped down his neck.

and if it's not enough to make a girl, like me, weak in the knees, he has smoky eyes that talk.

lynette told me she has a friend who really appreciates girls who can talk with their eyes. i thought it sounded stupid, but now, i totally don't blame him- lynette's friend, i mean. it's an awesome way to flirt. from mind reeling to hot-shot, hands down. electrifying.

he walked down the aisle, radiating sensual aura *holds in drool* trying to find a seat. his eyes grazed on me. zeroed in. assessing. scorching hot. my body temperature spiked to 10 degrees celsius. recognition flashed...he raised his eyebrows. the corners of his mouth tilted up to a slight smile.

the very same cocky grin. (that like, won many girls over)

oh hell oh hell oh hell. i must be dreaming. that's it. i fell asleep on the bus again.

with that thought fixed in mind, i blinked, hard, but he was still there. standing...then he sat down a few seats in front of me.

i didn't realise there was so much pent up tension until i uncurled my toes and tried to steady my rapidly beating heart. i thought i was going to die.

the bus seemed smaller. i knew he looked at me because i could feel it. the pressing, stifling heat.it was a curious glance. he even turned around to do so.

shit. i couldn't breathe. and yes, i felt faint. (i am disgusted, actually. i mean, so whoozy??!! dang.)

so i did the very thing any loser would do- look away, pretending not to notice. my mind was screaming "LOOK BACK AND SHOOT HIM A WINNING SMILE THAT'LL KNOCK HIM OFF HIS FEET!!"

i can't. i felt weak and vulnerable. funny, i sorta liked it.

i hummed to myself, more consolation. i looked blankly at the greenery that was blurred with the bus rumbling past.

eventually, i got impatient at myself for not even responding, a teeny bit, so i looked at his back. this time, he was looking out the window; he had turned away. feeling slightly relaxed, i let my guard down but he whirled around slightly, so i was in his field of vision again. i felt so shy.

after 5 years, would he still recognise me? would he remember...camp? when he nearly held me? infuriated me for the fun of it, then diffuse my theatrics with his husky voice and alluring eyes?

F!$#^!$&%@* where did all these crazy thoughts come from??!!!

sometimes, i am convinced my mother raised fools.

it was a game. a game that made my hairs stand. i sidled over to my sister.

"he's here."

she looked amused because i looked uncomfortable. i felt uncomfortable. he was still so good-looking, it wasn't fair.

not that i'm ugly, but i wasn't very pretty back then, and probably was some insignificant girl in his life- like many others.

so this scene's very much like a splash of cold water on the face. refreshing, shocking, and energetic. i think i was practically glowing. god, to see him again in the flesh...

a little too late, actually. while i was buzzing on the inside, i alighted at my stop without a backward glance (yes, he was still staring at me, smiling his stupid, butterfly-in-the-stomach smile) and said a silent goodbye to my past.

just sharing a story. after all, my happy endings never reached my hands, only ended up in the trash can.

i whipped up lunch for my family, engrossed in cooking. forgetting everything, everything that happened years ago.

happily never after

2010-01-14T21:30:00.003+08:00

"i think he likes you."

"yeah, i think he does..."

"so are you gonna-"

"no. pursue? do something? no, not anymore."

"what? why?"

*bitter laugh* "have you noticed that every relationship i have tried to have ends horribly? i don't...i don't want to be disappointed again and again."

"that's because you havent-" found the right one yet? how many times have i already heard that?

"wait till i see the flaws. something will go wrong. the true colours would show and...i don't want the pain and misery. i plan to distance myself away from him." what makes you think he'll be happy with me? i'll hurt him like what i did to the others. i can't help but like and hurt him all the same. staying away? coward. maybe i am.

"whatever happened to happy endings?"

"i've stopped believing in them."

and i think, there's some truth ringing on my words.

if joe can be a cynic, so can i.

billiard babe and JAE

2010-01-14T20:56:00.004+08:00

sleepless nights fretting for O level results; another sleepless nights fretting over what school and what course or stream to go to.

i slept at 2am and woke at 8, totally drained.

on wednesday, me and lynette went to MJ open house. comparing it with TJ, i'd say MJ has better school facilities and a nicer setting. also quite accessible to my house!

me and lynette could not walk a few metres without interruption- apparently there were many temasekians and anglicans around, we were waving and saying hi so much :)

we checked out the CCA ~~and hot guys~~ and went for air rifle trials. i still suck at it because no matter how i try, the bullet shot doesn't even hit the grey area near the bulls eye -.-

we got bored so we left early and played billiards. i taught lynette the basics. (she kept freaking out when the ball jumps and i told her to relax)

gotta practice and sharpen my skills to go pro!

today:

i went to suntec city to collect my swatch watch worth 99 bucks as a prize for the winning letter to 17 magazine. it's pretty, silver links with pink flowers. i love it!

also registered for JAE-

#1: TJ arts
#2: VJ arts
#3: MJ arts
#4: TJ sci
#5: MJ sci
#6: VJ sci
#7: St Andrews JC arts
#8: SAJC sci
#9: NP mass comm
#10: NP tourism
#11: TP psycology
#12: TP interior design

hopefully i'll get the first choice and get admitted to temasek junior college!

o lvl results

2010-01-12T17:10:00.005+08:00

the night of 10 jan 2010, i couldn't sleep.

the anger fested inside me like poison. my heart pumped so fast, so wildly, the poison spread through my body as the blood rushed through my veins.

toxic, of course. yet, i could not diffuse the boiling hot rage.

i want to jump at his throat. scream, claw.

i always thought i was intelligent- a true judgement of character. well, now's to say, i can never trust my mind anymore. or my heart.

damn. it hurt. the brutal truth was like a person mocking, then delivering a cold hard slap across my face.

i curled into a ball in bed and whispered comforting words to myself, hushing when my sister beside me stirred.

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i thought i handled it pretty well. after all, i plugged in to my playlist, blasted happy dance songs and pumping rock music to chase away my skittishness.

WRONG. when i stepped back into school, it felt as though my music fell silent, and this time fear was loud. really loud.

O level results. omg omg omg.

my sister told me beforehand that our batch did well! (free holiday for everyone!) and the staff went on and on about the overall performance for each class per subject...

my god. if i could die with suspense, it would have been then.

they also flashed the top students on the screen. those scoring 9 A1s, no surprise coming from the China scholars.

8 A1s. the names flashed and blurred.

7 A1s. i ducked my head (people were blocking) and squinted. i caught kh's name. victor's...and a bunch of other people i couldn't care less...not now...where-?

6 A1s.

5 A1s.

nothing. no pauline hannah.

terror, not fear anymore, washed over me like one gigantic wave. i wish i could drown.
"oh my god, i did horribly."

peishan was clawing her bag. grace was whining.

i was the first person in class to receive the results slip. mdm adamal moved slowly- first passing the yearbook, the JAE booklet and CCA certificate.

miss lim flipped open a pink folded slip and passed it to me.

A
A
A
A
A
A
A
B

like that. my eyes could be a train; it was moving so quickly and smoothly down the paper.

i stared back at miss lim. at the desk. and the paper again.

BLOODY HELL.

i gave a short, loud scream and nearly fell backwards.

omg omg omg. i can't believe it. i looked even more carefully now. delirious- in a state of a dream.

i was gushing. i am so damned happy!

peishan wenya and khoon hwa came to me. "how was it?" "how'd you do?"

i couldn't hear them clearly, so i shove the paper in a daze and started clutching their arms.

ARRHHH!!!! WOW!!!! YAYEEE!!!! OMIGOSH!!! AHHHHH!!!!!

yeah, i was like that.

soon everyone got their results and the majority were basking in bliss. mr yong help me rip off the envelope, some Form A thingy, because my brain couldn't work. something got caught in my gears.

i am so happy for everyone. happiness is contagious. ps did well (she was dancing and chanting) wenya (calling home), mai (crying like mad), sherry (shrieking)....

as a thank you and farewell gift, i passed folded paper hearts, jelly and chocolates to all my subject teachers.

me, pincheng, grace, zhan hao, adele and aishah went bubble tea to celebrate our victory! :D

funny, that's probably the last time i'm ever gonna see the nice friendly bubble tea shop auntie again...

next month, i'm off for a new life.

ps/ me and kh had a bet. loser would have to treat the winner. in the end, it was a draw! can you believe it?

pps/michelle darling, everything will turn out right in the end. if it's not alright, then it's not the end!

ppps/i love talking to lynette and wenya on the phone. heehee.

poly open houses and no fools

2010-01-12T15:39:00.004+08:00

for the past few days...well i was quite busy.

+ tuck weng's farewell outing

we went bowling and played pool!

see FB photos.

+ ngee ann poly open house

joe badgered me into taking part in "don't forget the lyrics" contest. i walked away snickering.

i am in awe in the FMS (film media studies) courses.

oh, tried archery too!

loads of freebies, i tell you. DONUTS. COFFEE. CORN IN A CUP. HOTDOGS. got my hands on food. more importantly, it's free.

+ singapore poly

one look at the environment and well, aishah and grace pestered me to leave right away. it's so...foresty. and plus, we were roaming around so much, our feet hurt.

+nanyang poly

they have kick-ass awesome campus. it's really huge and one can mistake it as a shopping centre.

their work areas look professional. you know, long, glistening hallways. slash-and-scan-card double swing doors.

me and aishah toured around the health sciences school, played booth games and ate candy.

(psst. they have a waffles shop. peanut butter waffles, whoooooo!!)

+ temasek JC open house

ok, i WAS supposed to go there. but dammit i got the timing wrong and headed out at 3pm. thank goodness i called wenya and she told me it closed at 2pm

-.- i am a complete dork sometimes.

so!

+ temasek poly openhouse instead

i thought i'd better go off on my own, but thankfully, aishah and adele were there to keep me company.

i saw khoon hwa and other temasekians too.

i had so much fun ~~dodging~~ ~~texting crap to~~

we went through a course counselling (business + IT) with a lecturer and it really opened my mind as to how important and useful a hybrid course is. in this case, infusing IT skills with business management. the best of both worlds.

so i realised if i want to pursue media, i gotta hone my IT and business skills...

arh, economics? maybe i'll consider you now.

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for the past few nights, chatted with thet and khoon hwa on msn. which is unusual, because i rarely go online.

they make me laugh so.

sometimes, they point out the truth about-

well, the truth, or say something really funny about-

i laugh till i get stitches. or then there's tears in my eyes.

made me realise i'm not such a fool after all.

battlefield.

2010-01-04T22:26:00.001+08:00

i never meant to start a war.
you know i never want to hurt you.
don't even know what we're fighting for.
why does love always feel like a battlefield?
better go get your armour.

deluded souls

2010-01-03T18:14:00.003+08:00

2010 started off terribly. horribly. nastily for me.

i think i am a deluded soul- always believing in the best of people, until they take advantage of my compassion and patience and turn back around to push me into the pit of despair. a pit of pissed-off-ness, really.

if it's not selfish people who only care about their own interests (oh, never mind me, i just have to move mountains to my own inconvenience to appease you), but stupid boys with warped minds.

think i'm harsh to label? sorry, hon, someone wise taught me the world's a cruel place to live in.

i am normally a very patient person. i don't have a short fuse- glad i take after my father. but when one steps onto my red danger zone, i lash out- that's after my mother.

of course, not to worry, what you see is what you get. i could yell obscenities, if you're unlucky. minimal violence inflicted would be a slap or a punch, not serious enough to cause an injury. or i ball my fist up in a silent struggle. or i frown deeply. mostly, i let all my anger out, all my raw emotions- so much so that i have nothing to hide.

and it's bloody scary isn't it? when you meet someone who is the total opposite of me. my mother warned me of quiet, reserved, aloof people, "pauline you never know what's their other side, what they're thinking about." the unknown. the very depths of the soul yet to be penetrated. like a misty fog, or a mask to fool people.

so when i lash out, i am mad, naturally. it's normal.

and if you knew my situation, i wouldn't blame you for having the same reaction.

to summarise: 6 people pissed me off in the past 2 days.

a selfish, cold hearted one.
a freaking vulgar one.
and four pervs.

do i look like i'm some walking sex bomb ready to tick off and explode?

my mother hissed at me after a train ride home, telling me that 3 guys in front of me holding the pole "feasted on my chest".

if looks could kill, my mother delivered that effortlessly.

fcuk. and all i did was stand in front of them, listening to my music.

and what kind of friend offends my sexuality too? that's right. what friend indeed.

boy, why you so obsessed with me?
...
finally found a girl you couldn't impress
last man on the earth
still couldn't get this.
you're delusional
you're delusional
boy you're losing your mind.

am i tormenting and taunting you?
that's the goal i want to achieve, hon.
next time, don't try to get into my pants.
or you'll get scalded in my hot steam.

on a happier note, two boys with gracious manners showed respect to me. i feel comforted to know. thanks aaron and zhan hao (:

2010

2009-12-31T19:45:00.003+08:00

2010 new year resolutions:

1. be more daring and take initiative.
2. control my temper- already accomplished, actually! :D
3. be more selfless, respectful and understanding to those around me.
4. tamp down my materialism.
5. be more independent and responsible.
6. to stop getting entangled in messy relationships. therefore, staying away from annoying boys.
7. be more athletic- build up muscles!
8. help the less fortunate in every way i can.

that's it for now.

amazing. two very vulgar boys pissed me off on new years eve.

gym and scrabble

2009-12-31T14:35:00.006+08:00

29 DEC

my mom had 2 complimentary free passes to amore gym, so i invited grace along.

first class, 11 am, pilates.

i thought pilates was a bit more relaxing (we had that class back at school) but turns out, it was harder than i thought it would be!

i always have to keep in mind when to breathe, the right time to exhale (when executing the movements) and suck in my stomach, making my navel move close to my spine.

my treacharous back refused to meet with the mat. so i was slightly arched, and the trainer have to keep pressing me downwards.

we had to curl like a ball and push ourselves up without the use of hands- only abs.

and damn, did my abs hurt. my mom was grunting and whining and grace was trembling. i started to laugh a bit, causing myself to lose balance and roll over to the wrong side.

lucky the trainer was patient.

and yes, i was drenched with sweat.

at noon, my mom treated us for lunch at Phin's.

waiting for food to digest (mom went ahead to meet up with her personal trainer), grace and i strolled along to buy some stuff before heading back to the gym for sauna.

we wrapped ourselves in towels and entered the blue-tiled smoky room. at 43 degrees, it was pretty hot, so i lowered it to 40.

grace: are you sure that's the coldest?? can you lower it further?
me: nope. 40's the minimum.

my calves were stinging with the heat (because the heaters were located at the bottom of the benches) and we were very wet, not much of sweat, but water vapour condensing.

grace and i just talked and laughed until the timer stopped. we then went to the pool to dip.

water was freezing cold by the way. i was moaning and clinging to the metal bars, afraid to let go. grace nudged me in.

swam for about 30 minutes (played with the floats!!) before drying off for aerobics.

aerobics is more strenuous than pilates!! arh. it's like ACES workout, except more exerting and much more faster.

we learnt kick punches, galloping, even some cha cha moves. and swaying of hips xD

grace was struggling- "i don't like this! so fast!"

the trainer is very toned. she has muscles bulging out of her tanned forearms. she cheographed the moves as the class "danced along" occasionally whooping with glee into her microphone chip thing.

how on earth she can have a conversation ("how you're doing back there guys? c'mon! move your hips sexily! ladies, faster! show me what you got!") while doing aerobics in fast paced music (really fast paced) baffles me. most of the people were panting and trying to catch our breath.

after that workout, we rested then went to the gym to try out the facilities. like the cycling machine, weight lifting- the usual gym equipment.

bathed and ate snacks. i had a mango smoothie and didn't feel at guilty about it at all :)

pictures uploaded on FB

30 DEC

1. dropped library books.
2. took the trash out for recycling.
3. stopped by joe's house to pass butter cookies and chocolate cake as a new year present for his family.
4. collect sec 3-4 history book from shahirah.

i sorta over-stayed my welcome, but sha didn't mind :D i thought her how to read guitar chords and played a few taylor swift's songs so her sister could sing along.

ate chocolate and played scrabble, so FUN!

then again, i suck at scrabble. sha's sister can beat me.

recalling the last moments of 2009

2009-12-31T13:56:00.004+08:00

24 DEC, Xmas eve

went out to clarke quey in the late afternoon with my family to enjoy the scenery.

there's the soft breeze, the trees that offer comforting shade (couples making out in their private alcoves. ahem!) sturdy built bridges, bungee jumping, ice cream carts and soft jazz music- and the occasional smell of expensive australian wine.

my family ate at jumbo seafood restaurant and ordered the best chilli crabs ever served in town. i mean, singapore.

took plenty of pictures- will upload them in facebook :D

it became dark and the hanging lights went on. bars and clubs opened their doors to welcome the party people.

nightlife. joseph was absolutely right, of course. at night, that's where the fun begins. you've got throbbing music, intoxicating or classy drinks, mysterious strangers and careless horseshit that'll make you go crazy with delight.

so i announced to my parents that i will go clubbing when i reached the right age. my mom didn't blanched- instead she replied, "when you have a stable job."

my dad said, "when you're 40" and smiled at me mischieviously. so mean :( he was teasing, of course.

we also went to orchard road- which was a HUGE mistake because the entire street was covered with throngs of people. you can't even move, but squirm along with the crowd.

was stuffy, hot and upsetting. the dazzling lights and clicking of numerous cameras made me dizzy.

my mom ushered us back to Wisma Atria and she bought herself bright purple Nike sports shoe.

i love the shoe but i said, "Did you know that Nike brands exploit foreign workers overseas?"

i think the salesman threw me a look of horror.

sometimes, i gotta know when to shut up or i'll end up like khoon hwa, sprouting out knowledge whenever he feels like.

25 DEC, Xmas.

my tita Vilma came over for lunch.

helped my dad grill beef steak and pork chops, MMmmm x) - see facebook photos.

after that, watched "aliens in the attic". then, my brother's godparents came over. EJ and Ethan tagged along, so i switched on the xbox to let them play transformers.

and i was stuck in the playroom with a bunch of Transformers fanatics. my sister included.

i mean, it's nice and all, galactic robots that can transform into vehicles for deception, but ah, not my cup of tea. instead, i sat in one corner and dreamt about clothes, haha!

in the late afternoon, my family headed to Mimi Rose's house for a party.

their fruit salad is absolutely delicious.

one of the guests, a teenage girl by the looks of it, got a PSP from her parents. i just stared at her numbly, wishing i'd get a PSP too!! no fair!!

at night, we headed home for the opening of gifts!

i had a Burberry perfume from tito Doods (thank you, now i have a personal scent!)
a silver necklace from tita Vilma.
an organiser from Camille.
40 bucks from my parents.

not a bad haul eh?

xmas presents i gave:-

adorable hello kitty metal case containing with yummy sweets for lynette plus friendship poster!
a bag tag and DVDS for grace plus friendship poster!
handmade all time low poster for my sis
a bingo set for the whole family.

we played bingo throughout the night, my brother shrieking everytime his number didn't get called.

so i guess my whole family love the present :D

28 DEC:

the contracters came to my house to fix the ceiling. the wallpaper thing had come off. so two days of falling plaster and the annoying smell of paint and dirt.

my mom allowed me to go out (escape!) so i had lunch with sha and grace!

it was fun catching up since grace just arrived from america (having spent the entire christmas in a plane back to singapore- with babies wailing, disturbing her sleep)

she showed me and sha photos: snowy wilderness, packed street, glossy department stores, exciting theme parks, green, high cliffs and even the interior of a Victorian castle on a hill!

so cool, wished i had been there...ironically, i'm going to the US this june. then to canada, for good. sigh.

we took plenty of photos - see facebook again! and went window shopping.

<3

2+1

2009-12-23T21:00:00.003+08:00

FB TEST TIME! 2+1

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1. pauline (acquaintances, or friends)
2. pau-pau (family)
3. lyn (joe)

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1. 15 july
2. 25 Dec
3. the day my o level results come out/the day i leave for america and canada. that's january and june something respectively.

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1. pissed my mom off
2. cleared memory space in my thumbdrive
3. uploaded facebook photos!

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY :
1. do a silly action
2. eat a muffin
3. go shopping

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1. white topshop loafers!
2. cache black leather jacket
3. lady gaga fame monster album

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. posing for pictures
2. painting
3. singing

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1. italy
2. korea
3. new zealand/spain

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1. honey/vanilla milk tea (bubble tea)
2. milo
3. avocado shake? i drink lots of things!

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR POCKET:
1. rubber band
2. clip
3. a piece of crumpled paper

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1. pink
2. orange
3. gold, actually i like all colours.

TOP THREE U LOVE SO MUCH:
all the Ms!
1. Muffins
2. Masquerade masks
3. Music

TOP THREE WHO YOU THINK WILL ANSWER THIS SURVEY:
1. shahirah
2. cuthbert
3. lynette/khoon hwa/guan zhong.

TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU:
1. a pink rose- whoa, where did that come from?
2. old family photos stashed away in albums
3. people; family and friends.

TOP THREE THAT MAKE YOU HAPPY LATELY:
1. thinking my specs got stuck in my bra, and found out it didn't
2. sha partly paid for my leopard print scarf
3. chocolate muffin i ate in ikea!

TOP THREE THAT MAKE YOU SAD:
1. aching feet
2. mom's ultra-clean attitude
3. slow computers. actually not sad, very ANGRY!!

TOP THREE REASONS WHY YOU ANSWERED THIS SURVEY:
1. looks cool.
2. looks interesting.
3. was cool and interesting?

lady gaga rocks!

2009-12-20T17:41:00.002+08:00

here's why i love LADY GAGA:

watch 'bad romance': http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qrO4YZeyl0I

watch "speechless": http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VRILEQhJqoo

awesome isn't it?

denied access

2009-12-18T19:24:00.002+08:00

today, friday, DEC 18

1. stuck at home, listening to my mom's nagging, wishing i was deaf.

2. CAMILLE. YOU SURE BE HELL READING THIS, WHY AM I NOT GRANTED ACCESS TO VIEW YOUR BLOG???

i will skin you alive. i don't care if it's christmas.

cycling downtown

2009-12-18T18:35:00.004+08:00

thursday- DEC 17

watched Avatar with wen ya and pin cheng.

initially, i thought it was some lame movie, but i tell you, it is KICK ASS AWESOME.

the effects are good. and when the avatars ride their flying dragons, i feel like swooping down in a rollercoaster.

it's 2 hours plus, so i was trying to hold in my pee, haha.

it is breathtaking and also has an underlying message- to protect our environment.

suddenly, i wanna be a tree hugger xD and throw stones at wrecking bulldozers.

after that we went christmas shopping for presents (lynette, i bought yours!) and wenya bought a nice checkered skirt.

zhan hao and cuthbert joined us and we headed to sunplaza park to rent bikes and cycle.

we cycled all the way from tampines to pasir ris, near downtown east.

it was fun! there were dropping slopes (we were yelling with glee- ok, maybe i was the only one...) and we crossed many traffic lights and bridges.

we dismounted and pushed. cycling on the overhead bridge would fine $1000. i made sure no one forgot that, shouting at any stupid passing cyclist, "Sir, be prepared to pay $1000!" or "be a law-abiding citizen!"

i am mad and loud sometimes.

we took photos along the way (see facebook). we took random paths and ended up in a prawn fishing river and a playground.

i practically jumped off my bike and ran straight first to the swing!!

i love swinging. i'm an expert at it too. push forward, legs straighten. pull backwards, tuck in the legs....and you repeat the whole process. it also trains up your abs! :)

wenya videoed me. and we all tried the see-saw too, trying hard to balance by practising Newton's law of forces and principles of moments. wahaha. the kids were looking at us like we were freaks with a deprived childhood.

next, we found ourselves in a mangrove swamp (stinks), beach, near the chalets and a shipyard. my thighs ached.

at nearly 7, i called it a day and took the train home with cuth and pc.

US embassy and testicle problems.

2009-12-18T16:47:00.003+08:00

tuesday- DEC 15

i had to go to the US embassy with my sis and dad to get a US visa.

i sort of anticipated it would be a long wait, so i brought my ear piece (music!) and a book.

well, turns out the whole process of waiting is very long, like 3 and a half hours! and i fell asleep at some point of time.

haha.

wednesday- DEC 16

my bro got admitted to the hospital.

shocker, i know >.<

there was something wrong with him- he complained there was pain in-

so my dad brought him to the clinic, but it called for more expertise. so they went to KK hospital.

it's a testicle problem. yes, i am not joking. testicle.

he was fine when he was discharged the next day (cried because he wanted to stay in the hospital to watch cartoons in his ward -.-)

so i flipped through the doctor's report and found it was a cyst in his left er, testicle. biology students refer to as, scrotum.

aka. balls.

my mom told me such a condition is very serious (actually, not really) but i guess my parents were freaked that it may affect his fertility and prevent him from having children.

you know, he's the only male child in the family to pass down the Anunciacion name.

no pressure jayson.

sherlock holmes and werewolves.

2009-12-18T16:03:00.005+08:00

monday- 14 DEC

i went out with lynette to watch 'new moon'.

it's totally fun to hang out with your best friend- especially one whom you haven't seen for so long. it's been ages, really.

we ate at KFC and while waiting for the movie to start, (we were outside), i saw a gigantic poster of robert downey jr as sherlock holmes. i thought it was patrick dempsey as first.

robert downey jr is hot (big fan of Ironman here!) i didn't know why i didn't snap a picture!!! :(

but i wanna watch sherlock holmes and the vampire's assistant.

is it me or is it that the year 2009 is the year for vampires? you have tonnes of vampire novels selling fast, and even vampire movies coming out.

geez. fanged and bloody is all the rage.

anyway, new moon was alright. me and lynette were oohing and aaahhing at taylor lautner. the muscles....*faints*

i am sitting on the fence between camp jacob and camp edward. i love them both!

haha. window shopped at somerset's new mall 313. i wanted to buy a cotton on scarf (sign says 9.95) but in the end, i got cheated and the actual price of the scarf is 14.95! >:( so i didn't buy it because i didn't have enough money. stupid. that's a trick to lure in customers, so i urge you guys out there not to fall for it. READ THE fine PRINTS.

robert downey jr smoking a pipe.

goatee?

JUDE LAW + ROBERT DOWNEY JR = MUST WATCH!

taylor, you are absolutely gorgeous.

yes, i know you have muscles xD

ME AND LYNETTE! xD

*images of taylor and robert courtesy of google and yahoo image search.

**unable to post more pictures of me and lynette. hey, we spent a lot of time catching up ;D

2009-12-13T17:25:00.002+08:00

I've come back from Bintan.

and I'm lazy to upload photos. sometime soon, or hopefully, sometime later. waaayyy later.

hey, don't blame me. i didn't just battled raging fever (39 degrees celsius. so i don't joke when i tell people i'm hot. because i'm scorching.)

i didn't just clutch to my lifeline, wheezing the hell through fitful sleeps.

so all in all, i am fine.

spent most days holed up here at home...nothing much to do except facebook, watch DVD or read my storybook.

i re-read harry potter (and still loving it. JK Rowling's got real knack for storytelling) and have just immersed from my chilling thriller novel. kinda makes me wonder and think about all the psycopaths out there in the world, sexually mutiliating womens' bodies.

and you think, pauline reads these shit?

yeah. i do. i also read sappy romances and cry. but i'm uniquely half. i have a cynic side too.

lately, my life just miserably drags on, like a piece of hunted animal dragged by the hair into the caveman's lair.

ouch. rug burn.

and everyday, closer and closer, the day my fingers will come in contact with my O level result slip.

talk about nauseating. i have nightmares, i confess. who doesn't? I'd freak, i get scared, i break out into cold sweat, thinking, "that's it. life will spiral downwards once i fall short of my goals..."

or maybe it's not the results. it's the BIG MOVE. i'd be lying if i said i wanted to integrate smoothly into canada. it isn't that simple.

me, i'd probably kick up a big fuss and resist all the way.

now or never people. it's there, my alternative route, in front of my like a tantalizing illusion, only hazy- unsure.

why am i having weird thoughts? doubts?

oopps. insanity kicking in.

i want to get out. i NEED to get out. or rot here and die. i'm going out to watch new moon with lynette, and i pray that that may offer some sort of comfort.

someone ask me out. anyone (well, except stalkers)??!! i will destruct, damage, die, decay and doom.

and you better have a nice itinerary in mind or i'll take a gun and finish myself off.

note to self: think about the perfect christmas presents for family and friends, but don't buy them. why bother when no one does, for me?

friends and happy moments

2009-12-03T17:07:00.005+08:00

i have been asking my mom permission to buy takeaways for two simple reasons.

#1: no food in the house

#2: no food in the house would mean unnecessary, unhealthy frying of food, or convenience food like addicting instant noodles that are high preservatives and would eventually kill us, if not for a meteriote that will crash earth and end our lives.

#3: i take the mrt route, walking beneath the overhead tracks, and i have some 'me time'

which is nice. me time, that is. so calm, soothing (with wind) and silence, only hearing my feet scraping along the gravel. i people-watch too. i look at birds pooping and mating (what? i hear them cooing contentedly. ew) i look at trees, the greenery, the sky and my mind always wanders.

i listen to a happy song and so i smile, beaming at random people, and sometimes, if they're in a good mood, they smile back.

so today, everyday actually, i recall the happy moments i spent with my friends- secondary school, primary school, church, competitions. my family too. god i miss family reunions. i miss the delicious food.

kind of kills me to leave my friends behind when i move on to another phase in my life. and also kills me that trips back to philippines would stop once i settle in Toronto. or Alberta. or whatever freezing part of canada i'd be staying.

anyway, putting aside the long introduction, i decided to list down a happy moment with the important people in my life.

lynette- in primary six, ms norhuda, our form teacher, was absent so we split class- you know, the class would divided into groups and we are allocated to the other different classes, attending lessons as per normal.

lynette and i skipped split class, and instead, trashed this abandoned classroom, dumped our bags and played like mad- which included us dangling our arms down the railings and shrieking. we made wishes, played fortune telling, made up crazy stories and i was fairly sure i laughed till i cried.

shahirah- i couldn't attend US robotics competition and the sec 3 resilience camp, so i kicked up a fuss, so much so my mom grounded me. because of the phone bills too *coughs suggestively* sha stuck by me when we were posted to an "enrichment course" for those who didn't attend the robotics competition, resilience camp and working attachment in macdonalds.

well, enrichment my foot. we rode the newly opened singapore flyer, and ate free at pizza hut. (we also learnt how to bake a pizza because we toured the kitchen!)

i didn't want to go home so early so for the next 3 days, i sort of "camped at her house". hung around a bit and bonded with her sis too! i felt so happy, i forgot i was grounded.

grace- the week before O's, i went to her house to study. we were quiet, doing our own stuff for 2 hours, when she announced she was hungry, went to the kitchen and brought 'digestives' biscuits, nutella, raspberry tarts and fruits to her room.

she told me dipping the biscuits into the nutella would make an awesome snack- and she didn't lie. we ate to our hearts content, chatting about our lives, laughing, and then hushing up when we heard her parents walk by, and then laughing again. we raided her closet and she let me try out some of her clothes.

not a bad study session eh? :)

joseph- we went to suntec (we actually wanted to go to clarke quey and take a zillion pictures but it was raining), made a wish in the fountain of wealth, nibbled on auntie annie's cinnamon sugar pretzel and fed the fishes.

it drizzled a bit but we were sitting cross-legged on the floor, hurling fish food and seeing whose throw was successful: i think the fishes like my food better because they gobbled the pieces down the instant they land on the water surface. and we just...talked. had a nice, heart-to-heart conversation.

and i was shrieking with happiness when i pointed, "look!! the black fish is swimming upside down and eating at the same time!!!"

joe whipped out his phone and tried to video it. haha.

pei shan- we were, and still are, shopping freaks. once, school ended early so i accompanied her to her house to change, and we took a bus to my house so that i could change before launching to a crazed shoppping frenzy that would hurt our feet a lot.

no one was at home at that time, and i knew my mom wouldn't like it if i brought in someone without her knowing. troublemaker that i am, i still went ahead and did it. ps sat down waiting while i rushed about, throwing on my heels and fixing my dishevelled hair.

suddenly, there was the clanking of keys and the gate was clicking open.

ps and i exchanged horrified glances then i ran to her, she ran to me (luckily we didn't bang to each other)

ps *hisses* "what should i do? what should i do??"
me "omg omg. i dunno. hide in my storeroom?? under the bed! but-"

we were dancing about on the spot, flailing our arms madly. looking back, it was damn funny...

in the end, my mom didn't mind much, seeing it was only pei shan (haha. she would kill me if it was a boy) and we set off to the mall. we stared at each other (my heart was still racing for the scare) and laughed at our foolishness.

michelle- it was the period when michelled broke up with her first BF, and ps also did and we were all feeling so miserable, so mich decided we all go siglap KFC to eat lunch.

we ordered food at the empty KFC restaurant, ate, chatted- especially how dumb guys are, and cam-whored. i was engrossed with a book, and they pestered me to take photos with them -.-

one conversation i remembered was our proposal fantasy.

me "i want a guy to take me up in a hot air balloon, serve me roses and champhane and as we look down the many lights down below, he'll get down on one knee and propose."

michelle's fantasy was by the beach side and peishan's...was...i think a ballroom? i forgot.

and the four of us, me, mich, ps and grace, made a bet who would lose should one get involved with a guy, kissing, hugging and flirting and even having a BF to start with.

well, eventually ps and mich lost the bet. eh, they should have served me and grace as personal maids for a day!!

i have yet to include more people, cuthbert, pincheng, zhan hao, xin yun, aishah...and many more, i'll pen down my happy moments with you guys another time!

what a nice storytelling...

and looking forward to bintan holiday trip tomorrow. ciao guys!

jamming with wy

2009-12-03T16:14:00.005+08:00

DEC 2, jamming with wen ya and liew yung.

wy was very kind to invite me to jam at leo's house that day.

we ate lunch at 18 chefs- a nice western restaurant tucked away behind eastpoint mall.

their food is really delicious (i love spaghetti like hell anyway) and so is their hand-made lemon tea. the student meal comes with free ice-cream, so it's affordable and very worth it.

thanks to lynette for introducing it to me xD

it's like a chain reaction, so i introduced it to cuthbert, grace, aishah and pincheng. and wen ya too!

to kill time, (liew yung, without surprise was late) me and wy went to popular, scanned O level books- social studies, maths and science, and laughed like mad.

i guess we were very sadistic to the sec 3's who would mug next year. hehe. our time for suffering has already passed, whoo hoo!

i grabbed A Level GP topic model essays book and stared blankly at the hard questions posed, like "....freedom of speech...media....today?"

i forgot the rest of the question because they were too complicated to be registered in my brain. haha!

i refuse to tackle GP. luckily i'm out of the country before the end of next year. if not, i'm heading to my own doom. think of it like suicide.

anyway, wy told me ly's house was nearer to simei mrt station. i think her definition of "nearer" is somewhat fuzzy and unclear because we ended up weaving through many void decks, hiking up an overhead bridge and crossing many carparks.

but we chatted.

me,"i hate walking under the void deck corners! bloody napkins always drop here. once, i missed one that fell from above by a few inches."

ly, "be glad it's not a flower pot. when i entered my house, a lizard dropped on my head ok!!"

me, "it probably mistakened your hair as its nest."

wy laughed.

liew yung, or i can call him leo, that's his facebook name too, lives in a HDB mansionate (is this correctly spelt??) so his place has 2 floors. it's nice. it's very clean, can you believe it?

sometimes when i go to other people's houses, i am appalled at their state of living. i could almost imagine hearing my mom gasp and then collapse upon heart attack, that is, if she ever laid eyes on piles of dirty laundry, rubbish strewn on the floor, hair strands clogged up on the drains, furnitures madly arranged, stuff like that.

haha. ly helped me tune the guitar and wy started to play the piano. ly also played his own composition on the piano and i told him it was nice. he could add lyrics too, so he can sing his own song.

ly and wy made me watch his facebook video on his international excursion. there was a guy singing at the background, playing his guitar so flawlessly. so i sat there, staring, listening while wy and ly started laughing silently. i knew something was up. eventually, ly paused the vid and told me a very shocking news...

ly, "that's me singing."
me, "you're the one playing the guitar??!!"
ly, "yeah!! me and wen ya were thinking how long you would figure that out!"
me, "but the guy is so good. i can't believe he's you. you don't sound good live anyway."

ly made a face. it's very fun to suan him, you know.

wy and i begged ly to play the guitar because we wanted to do a piano and guitar combo cover for hey monday's "candle".

ly, "why'd you want me to join anyway? i suck live, remember?" *looks pointedly at me*

he relented so we all did so many trial and errors. who knew making a musical arrangement was hard? ly on guitar, wy on piano, me on vocals. not actually bad, though i went slightly off key at the end.

i went home and had a movie night with my family. we watched "The Proposal". very funny! haha.

photos with wenya uploaded on my FB account!

science centre

2009-12-03T14:57:00.004+08:00

science centre, Dec 1

i met ghee kian at tampines mrt and guan zhong, his brother and khoon hwa joined us in the train.

gz's brother looks scarily alike as him. it's like the exact replica of gz when he was sec 1. now gz's sec 2 moving up to sec 3, he has gone through a massive makeover, which includes him spiking his hair and wearing all black. black skinnies. with white sneakers. even i didn't grow up that fast.

"are we there yet?"
"no."
"are we there yet?"
"no."
"are we there yet?"
"NO."

and so gz's bro pokes him in the armpit to annoy him further. haha. i bet my brother is even more behaved than gz's brother.

we alighted at jurong east station and i asked for directions to the science centre. we walked around for a bit- circling the library and kh had the nerve to ask me whether we were heading in the right direction! -.-

we walked to a bus stop and took a bus there.

ate at Macs (i am so sick of Mac already. SO UNHEALTHY! oily. salty. crowded. ok, but their ice-cream's really good. and cheeseburger.) and bought the tickets.

we went to body worlds first, and gk told me the dark, silent atmosphere makes it creepy.

i took one look at the first few posters and burst out laughing. this is what one statement said:

"The man's penis can bend like a boomerang when inserted to the female's vagina."

gk and kh didn't find it funny at all.

anyway, i saw foetuses in developing stages until it hit me that these are the actual ones. i was carried away by a sea of emotions. imagine, that small little thing enclosed in the glass can undergo cell division and become a full grown human as the years progess. i was viewing something like the un-living. for all i knew, that tiny baby could be walking, thinking, eating, breathing, sleeping and be just one person amongst the face of the crowd, given it had the chance to grow. so i was in a state of confusion and shock- my hands were covering my mouth, and kh was looking at me weirdly.

gz and gk went a way ahead of us; me and kh went much slower probably because the both of us were absorbing all the interesting biology facts. we already know some human body facts and functions. psst, info can be found in Biology Matters textbook. really. i remembered them all!

one thing i remembered was (nothing sick or horny, i assure you) was intelligence is measured by the number of neurones in the brain, not the weight of it.

*where neurones are nerve cells.

i was scrutinising kh as i read it, trying to calculate the difference between the number of neurones he has and mine. he probably has a thousand more than i have.

i saw stomach, intestines, hearts, lungs, nerve fibres, skeletons, brains, muscles, kidneys and god-knows-other organs i never thought existed.

there was a gigantic dead giraffe (it's heart is bigger than the size of my head!), reindeer, giant squid and horse. cool eh? all blood red and muscly.

while i said in facebook that kh doesn't really have a sense of humor- he tells lame jokes, unfortunately- he mentioned a funny one.

me, "whoa! the liver's really big!"
kh, "what's that? yao ming's liver?"

haha.

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after that, gz's bro dragged us to some science demonstration.

something to do with electricity-like man made lightning? i wasn't paying much attention (see pictures below).

the woman, "what gas do you think the balloons are filled with? helium or hydrogen?"
me *rolls eyes*," helium duh!"
kh, "what the heck. hydrogen's-"
me and kh, "flammable!"

the woman switched on the electric supply and the electric bolt sparked off a fire- and the balloons exploded.

ok. so it was hydrogen. who the hell would fill balloons with hydrogen gas??!!

woman *to audience* "so at your birthday party, what gas would you fill your balloons with?"
some idiot, "HYDROGEN."

alright, if i were a guest, i won't go to his party.

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we went through different types of exhibits- sound (i did a few cool recordings), marine life, energy, eco-life...

kh, "pauline pauline! come see this! you will like it."

i stared at him suspiciously, rotating my ankles to get rid of my foot cramps.

kh, "really. you would like it."

thinking it was some kind of WOW-science thingy, i hobbled into the entrance- and screamed.

there was a gigantic poster of a cockroach, and i'm fairly sure there was a moulting stage too.

it was sickeningly gross!!! i was pissed so i hit him. gz and gk cracked up. really, even during the science competitions, they never let go of the knowledge of my fear of insects- they take the utmost delight to torment me -.- boys.

we also went to the futuristic side- a space exhibit and nano technology (i saw brownian motion!).

it's awesome. kh and gz were trying to make waffles breakfast with the virtual menu and refrigerator. a simple few clicks and presses on the touchscreen can bring a piping hot meal or cold dish, whichever you prefer.

whoa...can't wait for the future to bring automated fridges then. looking forward to it :)

after that, we strolled along the maths department and kinetics garden (i forgot the actual name) and went home, exhausted.

haha. we were crapping and catching up on the train. gk and gz's bro were so tired, they sat crosslegged on the train floor.

i tried too, but while squatting down, my head banged on the metal pole in the process. twice. and they laughed.

my crazy sciency friends! will miss you while i move on! :)

science centre photos

2009-12-03T11:37:00.008+08:00

guan zhong and his little bro in the train. FIGHT FIGHT! xD

so cute! chip off the old block- he resembles guan zhong in every way.

ghee kian, khoon hwa, me at the jurong bus stop.

"hey guys, we are not lost! i have a good sense of direction, you know."

science centre building.

ARRHHH! T-REX!!

kh gives me "the face" at my camera -.-

troublesome trio.

pumping puffs of gas.

mini tornado.

waves. transverse or longitudinal? xD

electric bolts!

electricity...

visitors holding up fluroscent tubes.

kh's shirt glows in the dark!

"look, guan zhong! i am cooking!!"

chicken eggs.

"aww..see the adorable chicks?"

we look cool, right? (psst, it's the converse shoes pulled off with tight jeans)

turtle :)

ooooh...we are astronauts. get ready for lift off...3, 2, 1!

SCIENCE CLUB!

gz "i macho or not?"

AARRHHH. SO CUTE, IT KILLS.

hehe. guess my exercising has finally paid off. PROOF: MY HOT BOD ;D

friends and science stuff

2009-12-01T10:08:00.002+08:00

in a matter of minutes, i'd be heading out to the science centre with khoon hwa, ghee kian and guan zhong.

i know this sounds mushy, but forgive me for i am a girl, i miss them like hell.

i miss lots of people actually. people like grace, shahirah, lynette...some of my church buddies too.

kh, gz, and gk have stuck with my irritating, quirky behaviour (and my drama!) all throughout the science competitions, so i think it's cool we hung out again.

funny, i could have picked a better place, but it's the science centre anyway. pretty ironic.

i'll take pictures!

note to self: never ever forget your friends. stay in contact!

job hunting

2009-11-28T21:18:00.004+08:00

26 NOV: job hunting

27 NOV:

peishan, cuthbert, pincheng and zhan hao came over to my house to hang out! :D

we played card games- my favourite, hamburger (if you wanna know how it's played, ask me!), bluff...

my mom ordered pizza for lunch and in the afternoon, we watched "Eagle Eye" on DVD.

the movie's awesome! thrilling- with lots of explosion and suspense, i promise you :)

we played badminton in the park (then it rained) and sat under the void deck to chat.

it's nice to know i can still bond with my friends.

28 NOV: job hunting. again..sigh. when will i get a call for a job interview?

they say they'd call, but they don't.

just like stupid boys who say they'll call- but they still wont.

dropped by Expo to the Sitex fair to check up on lynette- she's working there, so we chatted a bit.

she works from 9.30am till 10.30pm and gets paid 5.50 an hour! >.<

that's harsh. i hope she'll get a good break once the sitex fair is over. she can relax and count her $$

meanwhile, i didn't really know why i went to Sitex in the first place. all the techie stuff. gives me goosebumps.

i cannot handle an IT equipment without spoiling them somehow...

i'd rather have gone to the john little sale.

now that's more of my thing.

beauty DIY

2009-11-28T20:59:00.004+08:00

23 NOV:

i cleared my closet- threw and gave away old clothes, and set aside textbooks that can be donated.

so now, my closets and cupboards have more space! wow.

my parents also had the housing agent come over, since we're moving out next year- we gotta sell our flat.

know anyone interested in buying a big spacious five room flat near tampines mall, schools, church, mrt and bus station?

my flat's conveniently located in all facilities mentioned above! :D

24 NOV:

feeling bored, i bought some natural products, and did beauty DIY at home! :)

like one part vinegar and 10 parts water rinsed can cure acne areas.

garlic helps heal scars and prevents inflammation.

i crushed orange skin, lemon skin, ginger, cucumber, mix it with little water and honey to make a paste and applied it on my face.

did you know that baking soda plus water can help remove blackheads? (for more info go to ehow.com)

LOL! look at me:

in the evening, i sketched and did oil painting. i love art, really.

someone buy me canvas for christmas? ;D

parties and panties

2009-11-23T21:55:00.007+08:00

21 NOV: Joe's 18 birthday party

see my facebook photos! :)

joe's poly friends are the most outgoing, funny and crazy people i have ever met- it's a pity because i wanted to stay longer, actually.

i made friends with tisha, brandon, stephenel and zac :)

22 NOV: shopping with mom

my mom scored a 100 dollar TANGS voucher, so we went to orchard to buy stuff.

in the end, she settled to get lingerie for me...

a shift...and you know, other girls things.

i love the females fitting room. is gigantic and wine-red like a sexy bedroom.

if bedrooms can be sexy.

this is sarah jessica parker's line of perfumes. i love "Dawn"...it smells heavenly!!

anyway, i was only supposed to get bras, but i told my mom i needed new underwear.

funnily enough, i found myself searching through racks of lace underwears.

lace underwears. soft and delicate...and frigging mature!!

my mom, "why don't you get this?" waving a lacey-hot-red-barely-there bottom.

"how old are you? 16. good. here you go", she continued, and threw it in the pile of panties clutched in my hands.

anyway, i don't think my future boyfriend would catch a glimpse of my underwear unless he tries to get into my pants.

frankly, i don't get why panties have to come in many shapes, sizes and materials. it's not the first thing other people see while you walk in the street, eh?

unless one wants to cut off her guy's blood circulation to the brain (get all lust shot), so it'll go elsewhere, so be my guest -.-

best in progress

2009-11-23T21:47:00.003+08:00

20 NOV

my brother was awarded "Best in Progress" in his class, so my whole family went to St. Hilda's Primary to attend his ceremony :)

while at Century Square, there were flier distributors (Nissan) and i got this free face paperbag! cool eh? xD

haha. freaky. like Scream.

dinner night out with joe and his parents

2009-11-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

19 NOV: Dinner with the Angs :)

joe' parents were very kind enough to invite me over for dinner.

Lawry's at paragon, orchard.

because joe is very well-to-do, i guessed it was some expensive restaurant.

WRONG.

expensive is underrated. posh, grand more like.

a hotel cannot even match up to Lawry's!!

it's carpeted blood red, with portraits of the Victorian era, a huge chandelier, and throne-like cushion chairs.

it looks like a fricking museum. and joe send attire would be semi-formal.

i think what would be appropriate is wear a ground trailing Hollywood gown. my orange turtleneck with modest flared jeans didn't quite cut out, but his father was very welcoming all the same.

you should take a look at the menu someday. the cheapest dish costs about 60+ while the most expensive dish costs like 120 +

their steak is really that good. pay for quality, i guess.

and their salad, some "spinning garden salad" thing, they literally spin it on a bowl of ice. hm, classy.

Mr Ang told me their Yorkshire Pudding is very good- and it was. so very delicious, i cleaned my plate thoroughly.

i can't afford any wastes either. my meal alone costs 77.90, i think.

joseph's parents, me and him were discussing about local news, relationships, career opportunities, jobs, and the difference between mens' and womens' brains! haha. check out the youtube video.

turns out, unlike every other man, Mr Ang does not have a nothing box in his head. he's a very deep, analytical banker xD

i want to thank Mrs Ang for driving me home in her car too. it was a very nice dinner.

(joe nearly passed out at the back of the car because he had too much wine)

in case you were wondering, i didn't dare pull out my camera to take pictures of the restaurant. i was scared the staff may kick me out. but Mrs Ang took pictures with me though, hey joe, upload, ok? :D

photos of 18 NOV

2009-11-23T20:23:00.006+08:00

TEMASEK JUNIOR COLLEGE PHOTOS.

i wanna shoot daniel for laughing at my version of "half uniform" :p

me and adele :)

auditorium.

khoon hwa: are you sure you can handle being in the girls soccer team? maybe you should try THIS out instead.

this old run down bus is a study lounge. cool on the outside, stuffy and stinky on the inside.

paintings.

the corridor.

canteen. hey! they have nicer tables than in my school >.<

anyone game for rock climbing?

is this some exercise station?

stadium track.

MR TROUBLE-MAKER- AARON.

you drive me crazy

2009-11-23T18:27:00.004+08:00

18 NOV: TJ tea session, and a crazy day out with a troublemaker ;)

"You are cordinally invited to attend Temasek Junior College's Tea Session for Top Students."

*ooohhs and ahhhs*

so i got the invite, so did Adele, Wenya, Khoon Hwa, Daniel, Victor, Teck Yan (and others), which means waking up early morning (after grad night arriving home late and slumping into bed, no less) and going there.

i confess i went there not out of interest for one of the prestigious, top JCs in singapore, but free food.

yes, food. i'm pathetic sometimes.

the attire: half uniform.

you'd think i'd not be daft enough; to fully comprehend the term "half uniform".

my idea was this- top school uni, bottom: probably anything.

my head was muddled up from the night before so i did just that, throwing in a denim skirt. and i thought it'd be cool to add a chain belt. so i did.

low and behold strolling into the campus, i met with unnerving stares. worse still, entering the auditorium, i swore the noise died down. i rushed to take a seat beside daniel, who laughed and said "another version of half uniform"

apparently everyone's version of half uniform is PE top and school pants or skirt.

THAT'S NOT HALF UNI! THAT'S HALF PE.

my god. depending on interpretations- so you can't put the entire blame on me.

there was a talk and Q and A, so i queried about should one require a background in music or art to take that subject.

i'm a triple science student, better in maths and sciences but hey, i love arts and humanities (except social studies, urh. nightmare. wonder how my o levels went for that.)

then, snacks (YAY!!!) and a tour. me, wy and adele took some photos.

i like their gigantic library with a high, curved ceiling- complete with Subway restaurant built in! they also have this cool carpeted art studio...

know what? i am definitely taking TJ into consideration. (see TJ photos in above post)

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after that, i met up with Aaron in plaza singapura.

Aaron was this guy i met and danced with in Asean prom. so he's a new friend i made :)

he came late (i hoped he didn't stood me up) and we ate in yoshinoya. actually, i did, he already had his lunch.

i bought him cool black shoelaces and a cap as a farewell gift before he leaves for malaysia.

which lead him to cut my queue when i was buying my meal, waving a 10 dollar note to the cashier. my jaw dropped when i realised he was paying for my lunch.

he told me to keep the change, but i refused. social niceties :)

after that we went to the arcade. ok, he pushed me into the arcade, not hearing my protests when i pointed out he was wearing school uniform.

i mean, i was also wearing, but it's half, and i removed my badge. he did the same and bought tokens.

he tried to, but a staff came over and said, "You're wearing school uniform." she nodded to aaron's outfit.

aaron, "No. those are bermudas." smiling to correct her mistake.

OMG. i just stared. i may be reckless but i wouldn't dare-

"it's school pants."

"just bermudas."

i wanted to laugh and just drop there in terror, all at the same time.

in the end, i got really anxious, so i tugged his sleeve and we left.

we walked through carrefour (pronounced 'care-for' or 'ca-fu'? i don't know. aaron suggested we go up random people and ask. i said, we fake it's a survey, he said good idea i dare you, but i chickened out.) and park mall.

we ate soyabean ice cream from Mr Bean too.

me: wanna go to the mr bean shop?
aaron: oh. i love mr bean. he's really funny. do you watch?
me: yeah, bu-
aaron *rambles on about mr bean*: cool, i can buy the DVDs.
me: wha-?

when we neared Mr Bean, aaron found out it was a food store, not exactly, Mr Bean. and his teddie. haha! i burst into laughter at his ignorance.

oh, just to add, we got caught eating at the mrt station (aaron's 2nd offense, the smart ass T.T) and had to go up the concourse.

crazy day with a crazy person. but i suppose, i'm equally crazy too. that's why it rained like crazy that day, and i was drenched like mad.

grad night

2009-11-23T16:57:00.007+08:00

here's the old news: O levels are over! i'm done. goodbye studying! i have thrown all the useless files, papers and books away already. (cuth, if you are reading this, you are probably clucking your tongue in disapproval)

well, i don't like to keep trash, if you get what i mean.

of course i believe in donating and recycling. don't look at me like that. i did some of that too.

so, i have more room for books, like, the usual, romance, and "French Grammar" (yes, i am self learning French) and art "paint" because i wanna hone up my skills. you know, not rot and be stagnant.

another old news: pauline's busy as usual. social butterfly has been flitting in and out everyday, it's tiring. no wonder i have pimples popping out. urh. anyone knows where to get aloe vera?!

tidbit #3: pauline ~~nearly~~ got into trouble. again.

haha. let me elaborate later on.

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17 NOV: GRAD NIGHT

grad night. the biggest showdown of sec 4 batch 2009, and time for efforts to pay off.

because i did not walk around for 3 days non-stop, accompanying my girlfriends to every existing mall to find a dress. alright, not every mall, but you get the idea. *pants*

aishah, wai leng, grace, xin yun and sarah came over to my place at 2pm and i did grace's nails (sparkly pink)

did xin yun's hair. blow dry, style, clip and curl.

did wai leng's nails too.

initially we were lazing around, chatting...and somehow rather it lead to serious consequences where all of us were rushing about in our high heels, clothes scattered, trying desperately to put the right make-up.

i did smokey eye for grace, she did my mascara, i did sarah's blush...there was screeching and mayhem when aishah did xin yun's eyes all wrong and i had to drop everything to run for a moist tissue paper. haha. it was fun though.

we cabbed there and took plenty of pictures with our friends! (see my facebook for photos!)

while i loved the food (like, wow! 35 dollars well spent) the activities were...

ok. let me frame this nicely: you're 16, all glam up, looking hot or cool or whatever, you dine poshly- but wait, you play games like, who-can-find-all-the-items-and-put-them-in-the-string-would-win-a-prize game?

hello. this isn't a party, it's a grad night? my mom went, "pfft" when i told her there'd be no dancing.

while i appreciate the efforts (hey, grad night really pulled off and i'm overall happy- the deco, atmosphere, DJ, food were awesome), they shouldn't recycle the games played last year. i just wish there was more creativity and originality.

for the lucky draw, i was pinning my hopes on winning a camera, but i didn't get it. sigh.

the ending was really fun though! nominees for prom king and queen had to act out an MTV music video.

adam(the coolest DJ ever): "alright. i'd be the coconut tree. you dance around me like in bollywood. on one condition, you cannot touch my coconuts."

me and grace were shrieking in laughter.

result: Wei Jie king, Stephanie queen. sihui wasn't crowned, while her bf did >.<>
shins.

i went home with my dad, sis and grace, my stomach completely contented.

growing up; seeing new life

2009-09-20T21:33:00.004+08:00

when my mom was shrieking in the kitchen, just last week, i blocked my ears and pretended not to have heard anything.

unfortunately, she walked into my room...and broke the news to me.

HO! dad just had to text her at a crucial time when i was concentrating on A maths.

i've already told the following people, in order, about it.

joseph
lynette
pei shan, wenya, see voon, michelle, victor, cuthbert
grace, waileng
pin cheng
tuck weng
aishah
adele
stephanie
shahirah
aaron
sufen
.
.
.

well, if you haven't been notified, it's nothing, really.

it's just...

my family's application for canadian immigration has been...

APPROVED.

there. i said it.

i'll be leaving for Alberta, Canada, by june 2010.

so, another shot at life, new environment, better job prospects, new education, new people, new house, new food.

i had always craved for adventure, didn't I? now it's staring at me right in the eyes.

then why am i feeling a sense of dread?

i'm already homesick, even though i'm still at home.

Singapore has been, and probably would be my homeland. really. i grew up and lived here for 15 years. 15 unregrettable years.

i have met amazing, friendly people, tried amazing variety of food, stayed in a spacious flat conveniently located near the mall, church, bus interchange, mrt...you know, i'm like, counting my blessings right now *sniff*

and the weather too. right amount of rain and shine. (mom said temperatures in canada can go as low as negative 40 degrees ??!!!)

and i am so happy to say that i can walk around the streets at night without fear of being robbed. the crime rate is low- and there is considerable peace and harmony.

i'd say, it's another chance at life. and i shouldn't waste it :)

know what i'm gonna do there? learn driving and get a license (at 16), adopt a pet cat (17) go college (17-18), go on car road trips with my cousins- no parents (at 19), travel back to singapore (19-20)

i have to go to the IR someday...and try first hand on gambling. of course, i didn't tell my mom that, haha.

i think one of the advantages of migrating to a big country is that you can put your vehicle to use! driving around expressways to a far destination and sightsee...wow. coniferous snowy white trees, autumn red leaves, crystal clear blue lakes, cozy shops with chimmneys in provinces, ski lodges, evergreen hills- in the summer! i can't see those in singapore.

i'm going JC. my mind's got plan and the aproaches are all set. guess pauline's growing up now, huh?

i'm ready to take on the world. first, battle O levels.

ASEAN pictures @orchard hotel

2009-08-31T21:08:00.008+08:00

Me and blonde rocker Liew Yung!!

sha wish you were here! LY was asking for you!

LY- have fun in China? or is it Russia? or the borderline there?

whatever.

don't ask. some poly school trip thing.

no fair.

Me and Vivee.

i think she hates her heels. she practically removed them and walked barefooted on the dancefloor.

Me and Wenya.

thanks for the lift dear!

Me and Victor.

i knew he didn't have stomachache. came fashionably late huh?

he looks like Christoper Lee!

funny. i realise he and the actor shares the same surname too.

Me and Michelle.

belle of the ball. grinning happily!! XD

snapshot of me.

credits to my mom and the hot iron hair curler thing.

Me and SeeVoon.

she's all dolled up!! lovely :)

Me and Pei Shan.

thanks for walking with me to get a drink.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.

actually it's already over. haha.

my sis says she wants me to be her model. so i did a pose. yeah..

i wanna tone up like Megan Fox.

but fat chance that'll happen T.T

-for more pictures (since i am lazy) go to facebook. michelle has a truckload of photos.

actually mostly showing her and victor. haha. if you can stomach the lovey dovey stuff, go ahead :)

getting started

2009-08-31T20:48:00.002+08:00

*blows away dust collected on computer screen...and breathes life back onto the keyboard*

i'm back people. 1 year older, and 1 year mature.

ok. so i go wacked sometimes. it's understandable, really.

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i'll post pictures (I WILL!!)

+ underwater world camp
+ my sweet 16
+ cross country
+ ASEAN prom
+ teacher's day celebration.

that is, if my laptop doesn't give in with photo overload.

damn troublesome.

BOYS OVER FLOWERS + MJ tribute

2009-07-05T16:15:00.016+08:00

This post is dedicated to all BOYS OVER FLOWERS FANS! :D

I am addicted to this korean show. Really hooked. I go beserk when Jun Pyo (real name Lee Min Ho) is on the screen.

I really can't help it. I try not to scream, or squeal or giggle or sigh- so it all ends with me squashing my lips close, trying to force down (or muffle) my voice.

Lots of people like Kim Bum too, haha.

For the following pictures, CAUTION: DO NOT VIEW. NOT FOR THE FAINT HEARTED.

This is Goo Joon Pyo- with curly hair. The ruthless and selfish leader of the dreaded, exclusive rich-and-famous boy club F4.

He's the heir to Korea's Shinwa Group.

No idea what i'm saying? Simple. Switch on your remote control and go watch it.

Joon Pyo is none other than Korean hottie Min Ho.

See? He looks even more soul-stirringly handsome with straight hair.

It must be a crime to be this good-looking.

If it is, he should be sentenced to life-time imprisonment.

I have more pictures of Min Ho (of course) but i don't plan to put them all up!

I'll die a glorious death, surely.

Boys over flowers makes us Asian girls look from America (hullo Pei Shan lookie here!) and Europe, and rivert our gazes back to thriving Asia.

Wait, is Korea IN Asia in the first place? Heh, my geography's getting a little rusty.

Me and Min Ho's birthday are both in july- we're both Cancers! How lucky am I?

He's, if I'm not wrong, 1.8 something. I can't remember...

That's tall. Whereas, if i stood beside him, i'd be labelled a dwarf.

What to do? I like TALL guys.

Enough boy crap, Pauline. Shut up.

Boys over flowers may be all about romance (in the beginning, Jan Di's flitting between Ji Hoo and Joon Pyo) but it is also about friendship, courage (Joon Pyo stands by Jan Di despite all the criticism he faces- how can the heir of Shinhwa group date a lowly laundry girl?), family and success.

Success isn't about how wealthy you are, how much respect you garner from people but it is about your perservering character on how you learn from your mistakes and improve relations with others.

Romance isn't romance without comedy and Boys over flowers is appropriately dabbed with enjoyable humor. Even after the movie, it makes you wanna recall and say out the lines again.

Yes, I have come across touching bits- I weep for happiness and sadness, both the same. And each episode has a moral lesson- if you look more closely and get in depth with the characters and story.

That is, if you're not blinded by Kim Bum and Min Ho's manliness.

I was fortunate. Last night's episode, I caught a glimpse of Min Ho's 6 pack. Haha.

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1. i am not the only one who screwed chinese o level oral. so whew. relax. i know i did my best.

2. i have kicked off some nasty bad habits: waking up late and spending 1 hour in the shower. Now i get up at 8.30 am in the morning and i can easily bathe for 20 minutes. not more than 30, unless i'm doing my weekly apricot-exfoliation body scrub.

3. my birthday's coming up, and i feel strangely nauseous. because i have no plans whatsoever.

4. add "korea" to my list of places to go when i grow older. so it's: Italy, Spain, Greece, Paris and Korea. to be specific: meet Min Ho if possible.

5. no, i am not gonna stalk Min Ho if that's what you're thinking.

6. this blog of mine is turning old and collecting dust, if that's ever possible. don't expect me to do regular updates.

7. i am eating healthy and exercising more. no more ice-cream, french fries, soda for you Pauline *wailing at the background* (at Carls Jr, i skipped fries, ate half a burger and survived to tell the tale)

8. mourn over MJ.

it is very saddening for the world to have lost its King of Pop. i grew up listening to MJ. no kidding.

my dad plays 'Thriller' music video all the time. i suppose it's really thrilling (actually, scary) that i have nightmares when i sleep. about ghouls and zombies rising from their graves!

I like "Smooth Crimminal" though.

but all in all, MJ has catchy, make-you-wanna-dance-and-sing-out-loud-and-proud songs. his dance moves (MOONWALK) just makes you wanna shoot yourself in the head- because compared to him, you're inadequate.

a shame. he's only 50. but i count him for being a strong man that i know, because he made it through bad publicity, criticisms and family problems. he's a talented manwho has made the world a better place with his music.

may MJ rest in peace.

ARH! my sclera!!

2009-06-02T20:54:00.004+08:00

after 4 years of sheer hard work (plus complaining, whining and practically all frustration), i have completed my O level Chinese Exam.

whoo. relief huh? i mean, c'mon, for the past week, everyday, 4.5 hours of chinese lessons non-stop??

it's a miracle my brain didn't burst in the process. the exam was ok, i guess. (i'm praying for a B3. just that. that's ALL i'm asking for. God couldn't be so cruel.)

sorry i haven't been keeping you guys updated. i just have other things to do- i'm really busy.

so i totally missed blogging about michelle's birthday outing (we got caught in the rain while cycling) and lots of other things in between...

plus, the june holidays are gonna be packed, so, don't even expect to see this blog filled with my, uh, usual mishaps. (or whatever trouble i went through, as always. thanks to my big mouth. and/or clumsy hands.)

like just today, i hit upon a realisation that there are actually disadvantages of having long eyelashes and all. some people say its sexy (yeah yeah) but one long eyelash went into my eye (my sclera, to be exact. or conjunctiva? i don't know. i forgot my bio stuff) and it hurt and i spent full 10 minutes trying to pick it out, without hurting my uh, cornea (is that it?)

damn. hopefully the redness will go away.

and...what do they teach in geography nowadays? to rub it in on peoples' faces when there is a literature course yet no geography course, and the geog students can go home early? we literature students have it bad.

me and wen ya were tempted to fall asleep. we were just so tired!! pity us, people!

no help from cuthbert, jhia hao, khoon hwa, aiyshah, victor, grace, michelle and pei shan.

LOL. lazy to continue. yawn. gotta go.

ps/ searching for hairstyles right now. i'm fricking bored and i wanna change my 'do.

pps/ to top it all, i really am a magnet for trouble. or mishaps. same thing. today i petted a stray cat (because in case you don't know, i really love cats) and the cat scratched me! the ungrateful little-

ppps/ nevermind.

lemon juice and oranges

2009-04-21T20:46:00.004+08:00

de-stressing here. one of the few times i actually bother to sign in to blogger and actually blog.

forgive me.

anyway...

1. watched 17 again. i like zac efron. and his black hunky leather jacket and sunglasses. xin yun was so nice today. she gave me this gigantic poster of him. now i can paste it on my wall, stare and smile to myself. think of it as a way to um, motivate myself when i study.

or, a distraction.

2. over the weekend, went shoe shopping at Sketchers.

do you know Ashlee Simpson and David Cook wear Sketchers??

anyway, i fell in love with the shoes and my mom offered to buy me a pair. i found a perfect pair, tan with straps, but i figured i was buying on impulse so i didn't purchase it.

weird huh? i mean, where'd my obsession with shopping go to?

i befriended the sales assistant guy. he's 16. i wanna work there too. after my O levels. who knows? the shop may give discounts for a pair of Sketchers for the employees! or maybe...being an employee requires one to actually wear Sketchers. haha, awesome.

dang, i'm crapping.

3. cycled at SunPlaza Park and swung on the swings. it feels great because it feels like flying. i just swung there, feeling like a kid again and laughing happily. i jogged a bit too.

4. on monday, i challenged pincheng and grace to a bet. a bet they would sure lose... i hope.

i mean, if i lost, i would lose face and i'll have to owe them both something. so i have to win this.

lately, i like to take and offer challenging bets.

5. on tuesday, which is today, TEMASEK CHINESE ORCHAESTRA GOT GOLD WITH HONORS FOR SYF!!!

i'm so happy for grace. she toiled through and made sacrifices, mind you. a very painful process.

6. i cannot believe Khoon hwa and Aisyah actually agreed with Victor's crazy, far-fetched idea.

see, we had to come up with a plot on "Restlessness of Modern Life" and vic said to do a story on terrorism, from a terrorist's point of view. i said it wouldn't work. everyone still went ahead with it.

at the presentation, Mr Toh's face was full of disbelief. i wish victor was here today so i can pummel his face.

nothing wrong with the story of course. but teacher never asked us to write a Hollywood script, that's the problem. oh well.

6. XinYun and i totally crapped today. whaddya expect? we're girls. girls tend to talk a lot.

i did not say gossip.

>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

they say when life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

in my life, if i'm given lemonade, somehow rather i end up with um, let's say, orange juice.

put it to simpler terms: i have a way of twisting my life till it becomes incomprehendable.

still don't get it? my life is totally unpredictable. i have this in-born knack of shocking people.

and shocking myself.

i'm totally spontaneous when the time gets appropriate. i mean, i'm sort of a planner, i suppose. give me an essay or work, i can plan.

but when it comes to making decisions, i just go ahead without really thinking about it. i let my emotions take the wheel.

Miss Unpredictable, yes. grace said i was.

maybe Miss Unpredictable has finally met her match.

i'm bored.

2009-04-05T20:08:00.002+08:00

Your Ego is Medium

You have what psychologists would call a healthy ego.
You have high self esteem, but you don't think too highly of yourself.

You believe in yourself, but you are also able to believe in others.
You know how to put your ego in check and let someone else take the reins.

How'>http://www.blogthings.com/howbigisyouregoquiz/">How Big Is Your Ego?

You Are a Vampire

You are charming, sensual, and even a bit manipulative.
You can't help but get people to do what you want.

You have sharp senses and a strong predatory instinct.
You go after what you want, without mercy.

While you have the heart of a killer, many people are drawn to you.
You are elegant, timeless, and mysterious. You are the ultimate fantasy object.

Are'>http://blogthings.com/areyouavampireorawerewolfquiz/">Are You a Vampire or a Werewolf?

Your Dominant Intelligence is Interpersonal Intelligence

You shine in your ability to relate to and understand others.
Good at seeing others' points of view, you get how people think and feel.
You have an uncanny ability to sense true feelings, intentions, and motivations.
A natural born leader, you are great at teaching and mediating conflict.

You would make a good counselor, salesperson, politician, or business person.

What'>http://blogthings.com/whatkindofintelligencedoyouhavequiz/">What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

me? politician? politics is a dirty business.

You Are Fairly Abnormal in Love

When it comes to love, you definitely have your own take on things.
You love and hurt like everyone else, but your expectations and rules are different.
It may make it hard for you to feel understood. People don't really get where you're coming from.

Why You Are Normal in Love

You are normal because you think it is better to have loved and lost than never to have loved.

You are normal because you believe more than one soulmate is possible.

Why You Aren't Normal in Love

You are abnormal because you had your first boyfriend or girlfriend after you were 14.

You are abnormal because you don't believe a long distance relationship can work.

Are'>http://blogthings.com/areyounormalinlovequiz/">Are You Normal in Love?

this is stupid. just because i have a boyfriend after 14 doesn't make me abnormal.

and long distance relationships don't last!! at all. trust me, i tried that.

so i'm NOT abnormal.

Men See You As Playful

Men want a challenge and you are the perfect playmate
You know how to push men's buttons and attract a wide range of guys
You enjoy living and loving - it's one of your most attractive qualities
Men are often consumed with desire for you, and you love that!

How'>http://blogthings.com/howdomenseeyouquiz/">How Do Men See You?

passion, like i said.

2009-04-05T20:03:00.002+08:00

i pronounce this blog...DEAD.

before i leave, here's a test i saw in zainal's blog :)

Your Love is Based on Passion

When you're in love, you're brimming with emotions and desire.
For you, love can be a crazy frenzy - but somehow it all makes sense.
Love is the most important thing to you. You are capable of doing anything for love.
(This makes you very lovable... but also a little scary!)

Why your love can last: You've got the true attraction, bond, and euphoria to make it happen.

Why your love can fail: Love isn't something you really think through. Your roller coaster relationships sometimes end on a terrifying note.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatisyourlovebasedonquiz/">What Is Your Love Based On?

so i was right. i really did understood myself. it will always be passion for me.

behind time

2009-03-22T21:19:00.003+08:00

i have no time to blog properly.

and i need to post pictures on:-

-the Breakout concert
-steamboat and bowling with grace, pin cheng and cuthbert
-my bro's birthday
-in joe's house (i went over to cook spaghetti and play guitar hero)
-Sentosa Underwater world camp

yes. i am very behind time. tomorrow school's gonna start...

welcome back hectic schedules.

aries.

2009-03-13T15:07:00.003+08:00

Your True Love Is an Aries

Why you'll love an Aries:

An Aries has the red-hot seduction skills to woo you
Never boring, an Aries will give you the romantic challenge you crave!

Why an Aries will love you:

You have the intensity and energy to go head to head with your Aries...
And the undying passion to keep an Aries coming back for more.

What'>http://www.blogthings.com/whatsignisyourtruelovequiz/">What Sign Is Your True Love?

interesting.

jobs and social calendars

2009-03-01T16:36:00.005+08:00

what controversy. i know people would expect me to make a comment on the matter.

alright, then. i'll comment:

no comment.

what's there to say? the damage is done. it all comes down to how you portray yourself.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARLING GRACE.

i loved the chocolate cereals she made. strangely addicting. a mouthful of happiness. i mean, chocolate has that effect on me.

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ate at Ajisen with cuth and pc on friday afternoon.

cuth said he did the e-careers test. "guess what option they chose for me?" you know, to suit a job with one's personality.

so me and pc played a guessing game.

librarian?
cleaner?
discipline master?
pilot?
food nutritionist?
journalist?

.

.

.

.

.
"i give up."

"immigration officer."

haha. i could tell he wasn't happy.

pc: "hey. someone has to do that job."

pc wants to be a JC chemistry teacher. he wants to hold lectures, then would later walk out of the lecture hall with a cuppacino in his hand.

his illustration of his dream job fascinates me.

........................

and when my sis came home after CCA, she told me that during AV, they cut out metal pieces from the metal drink cans and placed them on top of the spotlight.

so the light shines out a different shape. compared to the usual circles.

i guess jing en had nothing better to do, since my sis said he cut out a batman shape and shined yellow light.

ooh. calling for batman! haha.

..................................

i finally bought Bio Matters textbook. it's much more informative than Insights :P

spent the rest of yesterday pouring over sexual reproduction T.T

what? there's a test.

and once again, my brother wandered into my room...

jayson: eee. what's that? *points to my biology textbook*

me: sperms.

jayson: where do they come from?

me: you. the males, to be exact.

jayson: so...that's the egg? from girls? *points*

me: yeah. together, they form the baby.

jayson: oh. so how does the sperms go into the woman's body to form the baby?

me: uh..... *speechless* ask mummy. or daddy.

....................................

ok. racing against time, and squeezing events into my social calendar.

i like, owe 5 people outings.

and then there's studying for Os. and my relaxation time. and plus, come to think of it, i never even touched my DVDs and Xbox 360 in ages.

affection.

2009-02-26T22:19:00.004+08:00

can i say something?

wow.

amazing.

i am SO SO SO SO jealous of _______ and ________.

happy together eh?

they talk on the phone. with occasional silence, but not all the time.

and when _______ ________ at _________, i can see that ________ really loves ________.

you should see the overwhelming affection in his eyes! and then _______ will start to smile. like everything's- gonna- be- alright because- i- got- you smile. and when i see that, i wish someone would look at me that way too.

show emotions. yeah. that's it.

i mean, i get stares. lust-perv stares. that doesn't count. especially when you're wearing tube, halter or anything that shows off your skin. a turn off.

serve me? :D

2009-02-26T21:54:00.002+08:00

oh, just so you know...

some thoughts are meant to be kept to yourself. you don't say it out. soft or loud.

hm, scenario.

that fast food restaurant crew- guy, he's taking your order, and he's hot. nice arms.

don't say he's hot.

even if it is to tell your friend. because you might never know that your voice is loud enough to be heard.

and the guy might look at you in amazement. you're stunned and, to muster any dignity that you have left, you coolly walk away even though inside, you're freaking out.

and calm yourself down when you're swearing that, at the corner of your eye, he was watching you walk and smiling a self-satisfied smirk.

just don't get all hot and bothered.

Trashy Thursday

2009-02-26T21:04:00.006+08:00

i think i attract a whole lot of trouble.

like today. a total mess. a total recipe for disaster.

1. nearly late. had to run after the bus.

2. during PE, circuit training, i placed my spectacles into my pocket and found that i accidentally broke it when doing crunches.

3. so i had to go to the general office where mr cuthbert was nice enough to screw it back for me :)

4. screwed up A-maths test. goner. i can't believe i forgot differentiation quotient rule. bloody he-
er, dang.

5. got a sharp, painful paper cut by chem worksheet.

6. there's a wound near my nail.

7. at home, while i was making my way to the kitchen, my foot caught the edge of the bed and i tripped.

8. nearly sprained my ankle and i knocked my knuckles.

9. while walking back to my room, my guitar case stubbed my toe.

10. lost my thumbdrive.

11. at least, i thought it was lost, until i realised that it was inside my pencilcase in front of me all along. (which made me lose 30 precious minutes hunting for it.)

12. i have no time to paint today. only draw. this is so... depressing.

13. i was designing, and i got an idea, so happily i stood up ("Eurieka!" or whatever that Greek exclam thing is), and my head hit my table lamp, causing it to topple.

14. and lastly, somehow, i just got entangled with wires.

don't ask.

and it all happened at Trashy Thursday.

on the side note, i accompanied cuth and pc to shop for grace's birthday present.

she's turning sweet 16 tomorrow!! whoo. that's fast.

and i'm bored. so i'm surfing the net, looking at cat pictures, and at the same time, reading exercise tips because i need to tone up.

i can already see results.

at mos burger, pc was startled because he saw that my arms are muscled. as in, really. biceps. but not so visible and huge like a guy's one. but a strong healthy- girly one.

get what i mean?

i told my mom about it, she said yeah, she could see the muscles. i sort of freaked out. i mean, 20 push ups a day and this?

here's what she said.

mum:
"and what's wrong with having..."

me:
"toned arms, you mean?"

mum:
"pauline. you're slim. and with toned arms, you can be sexy like Angelina Jolie, am i right?"

that is, if i also tone my legs. my stomach's good. thanks to pc, i get the motivation to do crunches, curl-ups and all those abdominal exercises.

jayson(my bro):
"who's Angelina Jolie?"

please excuse him. he is 9 years old.

mum:
"oh honey. in the future, you'll marry her daughter."

i think she wanted to add "and have pretty babies." trust me, the idea is very far-fetched.

me:
"and the age difference would be...6 years."

mum:
"what's wrong with that?"

sigh. now i know how fantasy-oriented dreaming is passed down in the family. i think me and my sister are infected. haha, thanks to my mom.

right brain- oriented!

2009-02-20T20:39:00.006+08:00

i came across a site- it tests whether you're a right brainer or a left one.

"You answered 15 items out of 20 as right brained.
Your score is 75%. Your right brain is quite dominant."

which means i'm artistic and creative, more than my analytical side.

but don't think wrong. i'm pretty good in handling numbers and heavy-loaded information. and yet, i like coming up with creative ideas and have my head in the clouds.

oh...lookie. another test. a short one. all you have to do is see the dancing girl and answer: is she turning clockwise, or anti-clockwise? http://www.news.com.au/perthnow/story/0,21598,22492511-5005375,00.html?from=mostpop

i see that she's turning clockwise. that means i'm a right brainer.

there'a a huge difference between right-oriented and left-oriented.

like, a right brainer questions rules and wants a reason why he/she should follow them. whereas a right brainer obeys without questioning.

a right brainer are risk-takers whereas a left brainer likes to stay safe.

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hey! wanna play the world's hardest game? seriously. i played a few times...and i gave up. http://www.news.com.au/perthnow/story/0,21598,22492511-5005375,00.html?from=mostpop

you're the red square. avoid the blue rings and go to the checkpoint.

anyway, i got lots of things to do! T.T

butterflies & ...putting geylang on the map?

2009-02-19T21:56:00.005+08:00

as usual. i'm only able to write a short post- then i'll have to go back to work.

me and wen ya got all upset today because we couldn't watch a movie with liew yung. he invited us, see. but there's remedial. and wy has her piano lessons.

if O levels were human, i'd be strangling it by the throat right now.

i'm multi-tasking. listening to music, scribbling maths solutions, researching, and blogging. oh and don't forget, texting as well.

i am forever in love with Delta Goodrem and Brian McFadden's love song, 'Almost Here'.

i was watching the you tube video...wow. so romantic :D

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HUFeh3fwe6M

also Sheryl Crow and Sting's 'always by your side'. it's a nice song.

i can't think of anything to post about right now...

erm....

um....

eh.....

uh....

i got nothing.

ciao.

oh.

wait.

when i came home this afternoon, i got shocked to see a big green butterfly sitting on my window sill. i took a picture of it...but i'm so lazy to upload. it'd like, require me to remove my memory card and plug in a few things. boo. no time.

anyway, its wings were broken. the bottom end was cut off- it looked like it was bitten off by something. you know, teeth marks. ew. what creature eats butterflies anyway?

and today my brother asked my mom. "where's geylang?"

"er...why'd you ask that?" my mom said, cautiously.

"where is it?"

"you shouldn't KNOW these things! why are you asking me??" my mom was like, near hysterics, man. and she called me a drama queen T.T

mind you, my brother's 9 years old. only. i mean, when i was 9, i didn't even know Geylang existed.

ok, maybe i do, but i didn't know it was a uh, shady place.

i giggled. it was funny.

my mom looked at me sharply.

"do you know that geylang is where men go to when they're-"

"yes, i know." i said, in a draggy voice.

"and that's where the girls-"

"EEK. yes yes-"

"lots of things going on in there..."

"mom. i know."

my brother just stared at my mom for a few moments. i winced. this is not a pleasant topic to a nine year old. this is-

"it's near paya lebar." my mom was resigned.

"oh. why don't they build a mrt station there?"

seriously. if my brother was not naive, i would have gone pale in terror.

if there really was one, and when the passengers alight, everyone would throw dirty looks.

because well, there are only 2 reasons why people would go to geylang and that will be-

ok. why am i talking about this??

i need to get on with my work.

ciao people.

*the blogger has no form of discrimmination or anything against Geylang. at all. i mean, it's just a place right? it's just that...c'mon people. you can't deny the going-ons.

a little.

2009-02-17T21:46:00.001+08:00

two words: bloody pop-ups.

already says a lot.

what's up with assessment books anyway?

2009-02-17T20:19:00.003+08:00

heh. oppsy. it's been quite a while since i last updated.

on valentine's day, the whole sec 4 batch went out to the esplanade to watch the breakout concert.

the korean dancers were very professional!! they can beatbox, breakdance and since it's a comedy, they made us laugh till we got stitches.

sometime soon i'll upload the pictures :)

right now i have to do some research...

sigh.

oh! just now, i was flipping through my maths assessment to practice some sums until i found out that i bought a guide instead.

which means, they only give few examples. no other questions to try out T.T

i fervently searched for the receipt, you know, so i can get a refund or something, but then found out the within 7-day exchange policy has, um, expired.

ok, at exactly 17 february 2009, 8.24pm, pauline found out that she completely sucks at picking assessment books.

i end up with either guides, or those not in the latest syllabus or too difficult to tackle or so very easy, that i can write blindfolded.

geez. i mean, i'm not dense.

note to self:
bring 5 dollars to pay daniel for physics 1o year series assessment.

movie mania

2009-02-07T17:26:00.002+08:00

hey anyone wanna take me out to a movie? after next week of course. not on valentine's day, though.

ANYONE out there? ANYONE?

boys can ask me, if you get what i mean. *smiles schemingly*

just kidding. girls are welcome.

i just want to watch a movie!!!

ANYONE want to ask me out??

*crickets noises in the background*

i want to watch:-

1. slumdog millionaire.
2. shopaholic.
3. bride wars.
.
.
.
.
.
.

don't screw me.

2009-02-07T16:17:00.005+08:00

quickie post here. before i rush to complete some work...

this week's really hectic. next week would be worse. i've got SS quiz, bio quiz (on definitions on every chapter!! that's insane), chem test (heard that it's hard...) and physics test.

i am so screwed.

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on tuesday, i went for drama CCA.

xu tuo was being crappy as usual.

he was telling lame jokes for the past 45 minutes, i think.

like:

"ok ok. i got one. this man was out in the jungle when he saw a lion. the lion was 100 metres apart. his gun bullet can only travel 1 metre. how was he able to shoot the lion?"

sabrina cut in to say "his gun was 99 metres."

and xu tuo was so upset, he slapped his script against the table.

"that's no fun! you already know!! ok. i ask you...why is scientists' hair wet?"

me: "they brainstorm."

"HAH?? why you know??"

there's lots more. both crude, rude and outrageous. if i post about it, i'll probably get into trouble :)

and when michelle tells a funny joke, fridaus would get all hyper and runs out of the class, waving his hands and laughing out loud.

one time when he did that, xutuo and pei shan locked the doors so fridaus couldn't get in. haha.

thursday:

played dodgeball. it was so fun!

daniel, victor and willie were vicious. they could single-handedly knock down their opponents: us.

but we won several matches too.

willie threw the ball so hard, it whacked my jaw. luckily there wasn't some sickening crack sound...

or there probably was, but i didn't hear it.

anyway, sabrina said it was so bad that it was swollen, so we went to the sick bay to get a pack of ice.

i met mr soh along the way.

"what happened to you pauline?"
"dodgeball. it hit my jaw."
"dodgeball? shouldn't you dodge it?"

T.T i'm not dense. i'm just slow. i could have run away but....sigh. you get the idea.

hard to forgive willie now.

just kidding! i hold no grudges :D

friday:

health check-up. we missed physics class ;D

and during chinese remedial, grace was so tired, she was in a crappy mood.

well, our life's gonna be like that 24/7, since everyday we have remedial and school ends later than usual.

GREAT. how nice T.T

i'm watching Confessions of a Shopaholic trailer! heehee. i wanna watch it some time soon. Becky Bloomwood's like me. except, she's a more crazier shopaholic anyway.

lefties

2009-01-31T20:49:00.006+08:00

i'm taking a break now.

i mean, come on, i just typed out my ss essay. it's really really long. about transnational terrorism.

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lately there's a drastic change of weather. last week was scorching hot, and this week is chilly.

probably that's why i have a slight cold.

either that or victor passed the illness to me T.T

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bye bye to my social life. from next week onwards, everyday there are remedial lessons. so, on the average, school ends at around 5 pm.

8am to 5 pm= 9 hours of schooling.

that's more than my sleeping hours, dammit.

and that means less time to relax.

man, i can't wait for Os to be over. i swear when it does, i'll do crazy things. and let all the knowledge disappear from my brain.

except sexual contraceptive methods. at least, that's what miss alexis lim said today during bio lesson.

"you can forget everything about bio...EXCEPT this chapter! [sexual reproduction in humans] because it's important. you need to know these things when you grow up."

LOL.

rushed to guitar lesson. and i went shopping after that! :D

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this afternoon, i was having a snack (chocolate muffin. again.) when i told my mom, "did you know Barack Obama's left-handed?"

"well, left-handed people make good leaders."

"is it because left handed people are in tune with the right side of their brain, making them more intelligent and creative or something?"

"of course. whatever you said...i'm left-handed too!"

my sis: HAH? no luh. you're right handed!

turns out, my mom can write equally well on the left AND right. she's born a left-hander, but her mum trained her to write with her right.

she's ambidextrous apparently. that's why my bro's got her left-hander genes.

me and my sis are righties.

me: so that means...? lefties have some kind of special ability, is it?

my dad (who's a rightie): yeah they do! they can write with their left hand!

haha. hilarious. and lame.

the First dance

2009-01-29T21:33:00.005+08:00

President Barack Obama dances with his wife, First Lady Michelle Obama to ‘At Last’ at their first Inauguration ball on Inauguration day

*sighs dreamily*

do you see the way he stares into her eyes? he truly loves her. wow. amazing.

can you sense the magical moment?

maybe that's my mind wandering off again.

i just snatched this photo up from http://www.accesshollywood.com/tv-one

michelle obama might grace Vogue magazine cover! whoo. you go, First Lady!

guy's mental caliber

2009-01-29T20:51:00.005+08:00

bio lesson: sexual reproduction in plants.

"be carefull you don't handle the pollen," victor said. miss lim brought in a real live plant.

i knew he'd say something ridiculous, so i sighed. "what?"

"you know...you touch the pollen...then be careful if you go to the toilet...3 months later you find that you're pregnant and you'll give birth to... a flower."

knew it.

i rolled my eyes. it was a stupid attempt to make me laugh, but i laughed anyway.

and to think that i thought him as intelligent. a scholar. with that lame, nutty remark? i mean, what is his mental caliber anyway??

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xu tuo's another lame one. let me add, a sick one.

i went to school early for a drama meeting on wednesday morning.

and we read through the scripts...

and then mdm kuar left us alone to discuss the costumes.

xu tuo: "I KNOW I KNOW. the girls will wear...nothing."

i choked.

"and the guys would wear----"

i couldn't hear the rest, because pei shan shrieked, drowning out the remaining words.

"EWW! sick! i'll tell mdm kuar!"

ps did.

mdm kuar just looked at xu tuo coolly and said that she's gonna force him to wear one. on his head.

later i found out it was a condom.

PICTURES of STUDY GROUP! :D

2009-01-29T20:40:00.004+08:00

no cure for hate

2009-01-26T21:24:00.004+08:00

i am tired.

i ran a few kilometres (for exercise!), did sit ups, push-ups and whatever ups.

and i still can't figure out my Social studies essay.

hm, which is a more severe consequence between the iraq and kuwait war? was it historical enemity or oil production? definitely not the dispute over territory? the bubiyan and warbah islands?

bloody hell. my brain's pounding. it really hurts.

and i've been researching for UN failures and frankly speaking- it's a lot.

i am so shocked about the um, sex scandals.

my eyes are weary scanning over wordy and dry articles, reports and lengthy paragraphs.

i'd rather read OMG news. celeb tabloids. it's more interesting.

and they have pleasant pictures.

the more i see starving, malnourished children, UN troops and all the bombings with terrorists, i swear i am going to throw up. with misery.

there isn't a cure for hate.

someone also please enlighten me on the ASEAN failures. please. i'm like, digging my grave here. WHY DOES OUR TEXTBOOK LACK THAT INFORMATION?? it would save us all of the trouble. really.

dullest blog.

2009-01-24T21:32:00.001+08:00

HEY you want something funny?

go here and read this person's blog!

very lame. and silly! and cute! haha.

http://dullestblog.com/

bye bye michelle!

2009-01-24T21:14:00.006+08:00

went to the airport to send mich off! :D

at Han's. michelle!

pei shan! our faces so white! because of the light...

in the train...

with grace! :D

mich treated us to milkshakes! thanks dear! :D

and after she left with her cousin and brother, me, ps and grace wandered around the terminals.

went home and worked out! :)

i was also hula-hooping! haha.

wishing everyone a HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

tabloid

2009-01-24T20:19:00.004+08:00

this week went by fine.

1. no sec threes!! they were off to camp! heh heh.

i don't hate them or have any grudges if that's what you're thinking- it's just that we have the whole canteen for ourselves.

less people= less queue= more choice of food stall= the faster we get our food=more time to slack= relax and not harried

2. sec 3 camp= some teachers gone away= what seems like a shorter time-table.

we had a maths and bio test and i think it wasn't that hard at all. manageable.

3. me, ps and grace went bubble tea 3 times.

ohmygod. so unhealthy. it's sinful but hey! i never said i was saintly in the first place.

4. excursion to marina barrage! (see previous post) i love excursions. because there are no lessons!!

5. my dear _______found happiness. yay!!

6. no chinese remedial!!! it was cancelled!!

yeah. my favourite is number 6. haha.

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i was browsing through tabloids (yeah, you know me...) and guess what?

sarah jessica parker used to be an item with robert downey jr!

sex and the city actress with ironman?? :O

hohoho.

and have you ever wondered who was the sexy romantic guy in taylor swift's music video- "love story"?

justin gaston.

are all good looking guys always named justin? do you suppose? just like justin timberlake, i mean.

justin gaston is currently dating miley cyrus...4 year age gap. he's like, 20.

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omg get this. simon cowell had botox!

this just gets weirder and weirder.

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oh oh CHANNING TATUM IS ENGAGED TO HIS STEP-UP CO-STAR JENNA DEWAN!!

i am one year slow to know this.

so sweet. they look good together on-screen, since they are both hot dancers.

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ok. that is all.... haha.

excursion to marina barrage

2009-01-24T17:11:00.017+08:00

in the bus: michelle and pei shan!

walking there...

the view...

my lovelies!

pei shan, teri, wen ya, michelle and me!

pin cheng's showing candy wrapper T.T

and cuthbert...hah. he close his eyes!!

hi er...Wally Water! that's the mascot's name, apparently. i checked in the magazine.

spiral ramp to the rooftop.

hike hike hike....

pc *gives a disgruntled face*

me *continues to blow kisses*

pc probably thinks: EEK!

haha.

i spy with my little eyes something round...

THE SINGAPORE FLYER!

do you know that, once, the ride stopped halfway and the passengers were stranded for hours?

i mean, the poor people! what if they wanted to go to the toilet to um, do their business??

an accidental shot. looks pretty cool! me and pc just looked! a natural pose.

the dam barriers. i think.

the green roof.

TA-DA! the dam.

voila! we are now entering the gallery...

see this? it's made up of merely plastic bottles! they just stick luminous glowy paper to the bottom.

cool huh? very creative. i never thought of that!

gallery 3

rain demonstration!

toy models underneath the glass floors.

me and wen ya! xD

me, mich, wai leng, see voon and wy!

sadly, these are the few pictures i have for this trip. my camera battery went dead after that.

but if you want to see more, can go to michelle's blog. bound to have hundreds!

i'm waiting for miss lim to e-mail me more!

there's one where we were all lying on the grass in a circle!! :D

get in touch with nature

2009-01-18T21:25:00.003+08:00

i learnt what determines a good day from a bad one is your attitude.

i got that somewhere- you know, those inspirational phrases.

so today i decided i would have a good attitude. and my day turned out fine.

though i allowed myself to curse one time. just once. at home.

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this afternoon i went out with joe for lunch.

he was wearing his blue contacts! so cool. (secretly, i always wanted to have green eyes. i don't know why.)

ate at sakae sushi. joe was eating sushi.

"what's that?"

"salmon eggs."

omg. ew. sick. it's like, raw.

"OMG. it's like eating a baby salmon...inside!!"

"when you bite, it's like a cross between sweet and salty...."

i gasped. "you mean it's juicy?"

"yeah."

"it's like eating a human embryo when a baby's still inside! oh..."

joe swallowed.

"it's unfertilised."

oh. i'm so dumb.

haha. then went to the arcade. played time crisis till my arms were strained. (nevermind, pauline. workout.)

shot some basketball hoops and raced some cars.

after that i went home, planning to practice some A maths, but i ended up watching Bangkok Dangerous (Nicholas Cage) with my dad.

i wasted a lot of time. but the movie was nice!! in the end, the assasin (Nicholas) shot himself T.T

i hate sad endings!
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and right now, i'm rushing through UN and ASEAN research....

(though i side-tracked a bit. i was reading celeb news. like when Ryan Seacrest got dissed by Angelina Jolie. yikes.)

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oh do you know that Australia is giving away a vacant position for anyone willing to just be an island caretaker?? :O

you get to live in a luxury home in Hamilton Island!! and all you have to do is blog about the island. you know, do some reports.

i WANT that job. so fun. it can help me get in touch with my nature side.

i mean, HELLO? luxury home. on an island.

you can...

1. get an awesome tan
2. HOTEL!!! (inclusive of spa. i checked.)
3. beach
4. fruit smoothies
5. nature!!!
6. feed fishes!
7. outdoorsy activities

why am i having my O levels this year again? please remind me.

cupid's game

2009-01-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

The Priss

Deliberate Brutal Love Dreamer (DBLD)

Mature. Responsible. Aristocratic. Excuse me. The Priss.

Prisses are the smartest of all female types. You're highly perceptive, and confident in your judgements. You'd take brutal honesty over superficiality any time--your friends always know where they stand with you. You're completely unfake. Don't tell me that's not a word. You're also excellent at redirecting internal negative energy.

These facts indicate people are often intimidated by you. They also fall for you, hard. You have a distant, composed allure that many find irresistible. If only more of them lived up to your standards.

You were probably the last among your friends to have sex. And the first to pretend that you're pregnant. LOL. Though you're inclined to use sex as weapon, at least it's not as one of mass destruction. You're choosier than most about your partners. A supportive relationship is what you're really after. Whether you know it or not, you need something steady & long-term. And soothing.

Your exact female opposite:

The Playstation

Random Gentle Sex Master

Always avoid: The Playboy (RGSM), The Loverboy (RGLM)

Consider: The Manchild (RBLD)

Link: The Online Dating Persona Test | OkCupid - dating services | Dating
My profile name: : dangerina

a walk to remember

2009-01-16T18:50:00.011+08:00

"why are you frowning?"

what to say? mummy, i'm just bloody pissed off at a guy right now. you are right. better to be single. and oh yeah did i mention that i might consider to go to a poly, instead of a junior college?

actually, not really. i'm keeping my JC options open. and i'm sure the last sentence might finish her off.

she'd get a heart attack. compared to the guy news, the poly one is much much worse.

but of course, i didn't say that.

"had chinese remedial."

"and so?"

"uh, couldn't think what to write for my essay."

which is partially true.

and i think, Fridays sure hate me a lot.

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bad luck:

- got scolded by miss soh. we were late for SS class.

- our project work can't be opened because of the different powerpoint formats. shit. must re-do???

- i think i'm gonna fail my chinese test, even though i toiled through the paper, and put my mind into it, so much so, my brain was frying... sizzling, more like.

- chinese remedial

dammit to the 7th level of hell. i always don't know what to write for the essays.

after that, got frustrated-

wait, oh haha T.T under-statement of the year. not frustrated, i'm SO sorry. i meant, seething with white-hot rage.

i just asked a small question. because i needed help. desperately. you know, my chinese stinks like smelly gym socks.

"go find it in the dictionary! you think i'm there to help you?"

what KIND of response was that anyway? what is it now? LET'S-BE-MEAN day today?

and when i am already being VERY KINDLY ASSISTED (not sarcastic, by the way) by a kind soul, YOU wanna pitch in.

you even told her she's teaching me wrongly!

i totally trust her!

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"he isn't worth your tears."

"puh-leeze. i'm not gonna cry."

and later, after vowing not to, tears slid down the corners of my eyes.

i'm not sad. it was all angry tears. i looked up and thought, why does these crappy things happen to me anyway??

i'm not evil. i don't deserve bad things to happen to me most of the time. i study hard, i don't smoke, i don't take drugs.

but despite all this, i sometimes get the worst luck ever.

then i cried for the times i've been selfish, greedy, irresponsible, ignorant.

alright. so probably i deserve it.

AND, more bad luck...

- the bus i rode had a noisy engine.

it was whirring like mad. and i was trying to listen to my music! BOO!! i turned the volume up, but i couldn't hear much.

turns out, later when i alighted, i saw a metal wire dangling from the edge, scraping against the gravel road when the bus drove away.

so that was what's making the awful, loud noise. curse you evil metal wire! ruin my music!

went home and my mom hogged the com. she somehow caused it to lag. another bad luck.

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so, pauline is a strong person. she won't let some stupid things ruin her day (actually, it already did.)

so i've come up with things to do when you're mad.

1. listen to rock songs. especially hard-rock. then you can scream out the words.

and make sure your feelings match certain lyrics. it feels more good that way.

mine today was: (sing along in an anguish tone)

so what?
I'm still a rock star!
I got my rock moves!
And I don't need you,
And guess what?!
I'm having more fun,
And now that were done,
I'm gonna show you tonight,
I'm alright!
I'm just fine!
And you're a tool!
So, so what?
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You weren't there,
You never were,
You want it all,
But that's not fair!
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you let me faaaalllll......

it felt good. like sipping intoxicating wine.

please don't listen to sappy love songs. you'd cry and your tear glands might over-work.

i dunno. can you suffer from tear-gland infection or something? better not risk it.

2. READ.

a novel. not necessarily romance, but it was the first thing i reached for.

Nicholas Sparks's A Walk to Remember.

it's a great book. i'm not done with it yet, though.

it's about this boy, Landon Carter, who, had no date for the prom, so he decided to ask his church preacher's daughter, Jamie, out.

he's a rebel, while she's a goody two shoes.

he doesn't really like her. but somehow they ended up working together in a Christmas play and soon, he falls in love with her.

it's really romantic. let me pick a nice part...ok, here's an excerpt:

"Do you think i'm strange too?" she asked me.
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I [Landon] put my finger beneath her chin, lifting her head up and making her look at me again. (pause. if a guy did this to me, i'd melt in a puddle *smiles wistfully*)

"you're a wonderful person, jamie. you're beautiful, you're kind, you're gentle. you're everything that i'd like to be. if people don't like you, or they think you're strange, then that's their problem...i love you, jamie. you're the best thing that ever happened to me."

i was crying. my shoulders started to shake and i sobbed.

i know, this is fantasy, it won't really happen, but when i read these kind of stuff, out there, there's always hope for the better. it teaches me not to be afraid to dream. and to want things. and to go get it.

but the sad thing was, jamie was dying. she's sick. she couldn't tell landon, but in the end, she did. and the guy cried. he couldn't sleep all night; couldn't focus in class. it's so depressing.

then, landon sat down -and the phrase that shook me to my soul: 'I prayed for a miracle.'

then i sobbed harder. i didn't want her to die. it's so cruel, to let jamie enter his life and then let death/sickness take her away from him. just when he fell in love at 17.

i wonder how many people out there are clinging onto their lives, while their loved ones can't do anything but pray. for a miracle. throwing all your energy into God's hands.

a 50/50 chance.

human emotions make us, but they also break us.

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ok ok. i gotta do my work now. researching on ASEAN.

sigh.

OPQRS....O...O...O levels.

2009-01-15T20:46:00.003+08:00

was busy studying. it's the O year. yup, O levels.

12 jan:

release of sec 4 2008 O level results.

our school did pretty well; mrs ong was nice enough to give us a day off.

when they made the announcement, everyone was shrieking with excitement :D

the previous batch of sec 4/2 was...excellent. average L1R5 is 9 point something.

a single digit.

pressure pressure. the teachers probably expect us to continue the legacy of 4.2 brilliance.

ANWAR IS ONE OF THE TOP PUPILS!!!

me, ps and mich were screaming in support!!!

i didn't expect that.

that's coming from the same guy who painted over his rubriks cube.

and the same guy, in drama club, who acted as the little lamb while i was Mary.

you know. mary and her little lamb? anwar had to crawl on all fours, while liew yung and pei shan were the rainbow. HAHA!!

i miss my seniors!!

in the hall, there was a mixture of grief and happiness. some people were excited about their results, some weren't. they were disappointed....

after that, i went to drink bubble tea with grace and we talked about the many different kinds of fart.

(a) atomic bomb. (KA-BOOM!!)
(b) machine gun (tutt- tutt- tutt- tutt---)
(c) silent but deadly

we were laughing so hard, our stomach hurt xD

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13 jan:

went to grace's house to do SS project. ps and xin yun went along too.

while doing the powerpoint, we were also watching a korea drama at the same time.

HILARIOUS!! i forgot the title....

the guys in it are hot and romantic- ps and i were gushing at the screen. (OOOHHHs. AHHHHS. WOW!!! SO SWEET...) even xy looked interested.

after that, we had lunch at KFC and i went back to grace's house.

she taught me a piano piece.

and to tell you, my hands are pathetic. i can't co-ordinate both. unlike piano, guitar focuses on your left hand only. gah.

i wanted to study chem, but i ended up watching Pearl Harbor.

a sad romance story set in World War II

in the starting, i had my share of laughter, but when Japan dropped bombs in Pearl Harbor, many innocent lives were lost.

i thought about the mens' families. their wives- their children, who would grow up not knowing their fathers.

i saw blood. some bodies were cut open. some suffered from burns. i saw people trying to cling onto their lives.

"please...i don't want to die.."

omg. no. NO! grief welled up inside me, i choked, and tears poured. these people did not deserve to die!!

so there's these 2 men: Rafe and Danny. they are best friends and they are both in love with the same woman. they fought about it before, and during the war, just when a jap soldier was about to gun Rafe, Danny jumped forward and took the bullet for him.

"Danny you can't die!! no...you're going to be a father!"

i was so touched. to love your friend like a brother, and to sacrifice your life for him, and then water-works started again.

by the end of the movie, i was numb. and my eyes were red.

never take life for granted....

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14 jan:

i forgot.

oh, but i just remembered lessons ended late because our class stayed back for bio.

i fell asleep.

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15 jan (today):

PE: played ice and water.

haha! so childish. grace kept targeting me :(

LIT: err...normal lessons, i suppose....

ENGLISH: practice oral.

daniel was my examiner! you know, he's english is so good, i'd kinda thought his standard would be high (and that he might mark me strictly?) but he gave me a high score.

and on my paper, he wrote "confident".

oh man, i'm such a good actress. in actual fact i was shaking on the inside. i always get like this when i do oral exams. or presentation. i quake inside. but i don't let it show.

i felt i did pretty well. i faked the confident part, i actually believed i was confident! that's why i didn't have a mental block or something. i could think fast.

E MATHS: had a long talk with victor about erm, stuff. he's very experienced. he gives me, um, insights :D

CHEM: nearly fell asleep. there was a demonstration between Miss Nitrate and Mr Lead and Mr Magnesium! LOL.

nitrate divorced with lead to be with magnesium because Mg displaces Pb.

haha. paul, teri and tuck weng re-enacted the scene :)

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can't wait for O levels be over. Grr...

miss lucky survives

2009-01-02T15:24:00.003+08:00

first day of school.

status: nervous. anxious. slightly upset (due to the waking up early part.)

i was scared i would board the bus late so i rushed in bathing, only to come out and look at the clock: 6.15am

that's early.

first person i said hi to was victor and daniel. it was drizzling, so i followed nuraishah, pin cheng and zhan hao to the classroom.

then there was an announcement to assemble in the parade square. so we had to move again.

mrs ong gave a speech on mr yong's retirement!

i will miss him. he teaches maths very well, that's why i always get an A!!

sat beside grace today. me, pc, grace and cuth chatted :D

after that, we had discipline talk and principal's speech.

sat crosslegged for so long, my muscles were cramping up!!!

the principal kept stressing to work hard and do well, and it makes me feel... jumpy. like the O's are just around the corner.

imagine. ten months i'd be sitting in the cold hall, scribbling a long SS essay. or something like that.

cruds. what if i forgot what i learnt? what if my mind goes blank???

that's why i'm gonna work hard. and work smart. and then later, when the exams are over, i vow to play harder.

i want to do well!! (who doesn't?) it's my education and it'll determine my future...

after recess, we changed seating arrangements. GRACE ENDED UP SITTING WITH PIN CHENG!!! AGAIN!!!

haha. like fate!

i was praying i would sit beside a friend.

i'm actually Miss Lucky. as in, by my luck, i get what i want. though i also have my fair share of crappy days.

and i sat beside victor!! :)

haha. mr. smarty pants!

miss lim made us set targets...and this is mine.

O LEVEL EXAM TARGETS.

english: A2*
e math: A1
a math: A1
chinese: B3*
chem: A1
phy: A1
bio: A1
combined humanities: A1*

*the ones i'm not really confident on. the target's too high.

for my english i expect to get at least a B3. not my usual b4.

chinese?? B3?? i got a B4 once. better buck up.

com hum...A1? actually i'd be happy if i get A2-B3...

i estimated....my L1R5 would be (my best) 6 points. that's my best. my worst would be... no more than 11.

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this is gonna be hard!

anyway, vic was lame today.

miss lim asked whether the classroom needed adjustments, vic said to install an air-con. and a fridge.

T.T

but i like the fridge part. FOOD!! you know. food break after long hours of studying. that would help me a lot :)

victor, while you're at it, install a bed then T.T because you'd be always sleeping.

dismissal. CCA meeting.

there's CCA orientation tomorrow!! and i got guitar lessons in the morning!! xO

time-management. i need to rush to both places.

arh. so much for being the graduating batch. busy busy busy.

i can survive this.

school's in, holidays out

2009-01-01T15:31:00.002+08:00

ok. don't panic.

breathe. that's right.

darn. school's gonna start tomorrow.

i already packed my bag, but i don't feel ready.

i miss the holidays so much.

bye bye x box 360. i'll leave you sitting there collecting dust for a year.

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stayed up yesterday for the marina bay celebration countdown! :D

'3....2.....1..... HAPPY NEW YEAR!!'

my mom: what's your new years' resolution?

no one responded.

my mom slapped my dad's stomach.

my mom *to my dad*: your resolution would be to lose all these fats!!

she looked at her own stomach.

my mom: me too. haha! pauline?

i just kept quiet.

i thought about it. that would be...

1. stop lying
2. be obedient
3. to take more risks
4. do crazy things i have never done before
5. save money (and spend it later)
6. study hard for O's

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and the list goes on.

my mom *to me*: i know yours!! heh heh. NUMBER ONE! you want a BF. NUMBER TWO! you want to slow dance with a boy. NUMBER THREE! you want to get your first kiss.

i am surprised. my own resolutions consists of nothing about the opposite sex. HAH!

i don't want a BF. and i already slow danced with a guy.

at the ASEAN prom last year. he was a very good, graceful, sexy dancer, and i don't even know his name.

whereas the kiss...no way. puh-leeze. i've had enough of boys for a year, thank you very much.

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this morning i helped my dad cook.

yes, my dad can cook. very well. he can also sew well, as my mom puts it.

whoa. she says next time i should get a guy like my dad T.T

that would be a small chance right? like, how many guys can cook, sew, play sports, play guitar, is a computer IT genius and very intelligent?? less than 1 percent.

anyway, i chopped veggies. (cauliflower is hard. and i don't know how to peel carrots.)

and my dad cooked.

when he opened the lid of the pot, a wonderful aroma escaped.

Mmmmm....

i love to cook. because cooking creates yummy dishes which makes your stomach happy.

yep.

i tasted it. delicious. i contributed!! XD

anyway, i'm gonna have a movie marathon now. Iron Man and StarDust.

ta-ta!

happy 2009!

i need all the luck i can get tomorrow. because of school.